Life through my eyes

My big plan!

2010-03-25T19:08:00.000+02:00

.....was to choose "soup and sallad" at least once a week, remember?
I failed last week because we were eating at the mall both those days and I couldn't resist my usual cashew chicken and rice - yummi!!!

But today we went to applebees. I ate california soup - delicious, oriental chicken sallad - strange but tasty, and fresh orange juice. That was good right? But we finished the whole meal off with brownie cake and vanilla icecream. Well lets say if I had chosen my usual pasta and cheesesauce + chicken/bacon + brownie that would be much worse. At least I made a good choice concerning the main meal. Right? :)

Tomorrow I'm hoping we go to a mall, I want to eat cashew chicken and rice =)
Or should I try something new?

Read this!

2010-03-22T10:30:00.000+02:00

I know I have some girls reading this blog that are living in arab countries and around the world so please give me some advice!
Couple of days ago we had a sandstorm here, maybe you saw it on the news. Well my problem is now that the sandstorm is over,our home is still filled with sanddust and I don't know how to get rid off it. I mean it is everywhere, I can still smell it. It's in the curtains, in the sofa, in the carpets EVERYWHERE and I'm going crazy!
Please advice me on how cleaning my home in the most effective way, including the furnitures!

How to raise a child

2010-03-13T11:25:00.000+02:00

Next door we have a family with at least one child. I guess the child is around 2 years old. She cries a lot. When she cries the parents doesn't comfort her and make her stop crying. No because they made up the brilliant method of just putting their daughter in the staircase and closing their door to their apartment. So here we have a toddler sitting outside the home crying for some comfort and love.....She do stop crying pretty quickly so I guess it's a good method. I'm sure it helps her innerself and make her a strong confident humanbeing. Or not......................................

A promise to myself:

2010-03-13T11:19:00.000+02:00

To order "soup and sallad" at least once a week if available. Thank God, we are able to eat outside the home twice a week. One day use to be at the mall´s food court and the other day use to be at a restaurant. At the restaurants they usually have something you can order called "Soup and sallad". Yes it is exactly what it sounds like. So instead of ordering pasta smuthered in creamy cheese or wok chicken and fried rice everytime I'll keep it to once a week and choose "Soup and sallad" the other day.

Hopefully I won't regret this promise. But the only one who will be disappointed will be me. So no biggy :P

Chocking

2010-03-13T11:14:00.000+02:00

I've never seen a woman driving a car here (might be because it's prohibited) but yesterday I did see a 10 year old boy driving a car. If it is allowed or not is still a mystery.

Is a promise always a promise?

2010-03-03T20:56:00.001+02:00

You know sometimes how you promise things and intend to keep them FOREVER AND EVER? Well, what if things change and you won't be able to keep your promise even if you'd wish you could? What if life takes you to different places in life which makes it impossible for you to keep your promise? Then should we beat ourselves up for not keeping our promise? I believe in keeping promises. If not, then what's the purpose of promising things? None!

But sometimes things happens that makes us not wanting to keep the promises we've made. Is it then okey to break them? If the person in question doesn't deserve what we promised?

I have even made some promises that I've forgot. Promises about small things but yet still promises. I hope I haven't broken too many of them though. That would be horrible!

I have ONE promise that I keep thinking of. Why? Because this promise was made to a person who meant a lot to me at the time and still do till this day. I made a lifetime promise, but Iam breaking it everyday. And yes, Iam beating myself up about it. I feel so bad for breaking it but yet there is nothing I can do about it.

God and my own choices brought me to this place where Iam not able to keep the most important and valuable promise anyone can give. I hope God is hearing my prayers and helping me keeping my promise.

NEVER make promises you might not be able to keep. You might think at the time that surely you'll keep that promise forever, but you don't know what's in God's plan and where you'll end up so be careful!

I sometimes regret for giving such a promise but yet it was the most sincere and important promise I've ever made. I don't think I'll ever make that mistake again.

Knee pads

2010-02-20T09:54:00.000+02:00

Yesterday we were walking around in the mall as a homeless couple. Meaning we were walking around for hours without shopping anything. Well as usual we ended up at the baby things section. I love looking at mini baby sneakers and baby socks. I just think they are so incredibly cute! We walked through it and ended up among bottles, mugs, baby hair brushes and combs etc and some other funny items as for example knee pads for crawling babies. My first reaction was: LAUGHTER! I thought it was so funny and silly and wondered who would really buy knee pads to their baby.. Maybe it's just me but at first I thought it was incredibly ridiculous. But then I got reminded of how hard the floors are here. They are hard as stone, I know how it hurts my knees when I kneal down to pray. They make sounds everytime and hurts because of the hard floor. So knee pads, I guess, isn't such a bad idea after all.

Picture found on google.se

We had some friends over yesterday

2010-02-18T09:55:00.000+02:00

It was pretty nice eventhough the wifey only speaks french and arabic. I don't speak french and I don't like to talk arabic anymore... Or well I haven't been speaking arabic for about 4 months. I almost forgot how :P Not that I was speaking a lot of arabic during my stay in Lebanon, but I did listen to it everyday all day long and I had to speak arabic sometimes. But now, just the thought of having to speak arabic makes me feel awkward. Anyway it was pretty nice and I enjoyed the 2 hours or so visit. When they left they told me to keep in touch and if I ever wanted to go somewhere while my hubby is at work I could just call the wifey and go out with her since she has her own personal driver. If I will take her up on her offer I'd be challenged to talk arabic with her. I'm pretty sure I would, if only me and her around, she would do her best to try to understand me and she would(hopefully) not make fun of me.
Those who make fun of me don't mean to be cruel I understand that but it still makes me hesitate to speak.

The beat-up

2010-02-18T09:21:00.000+02:00

Did you hear/read about the beat-up of the 15 year old girl in Seattle? And the 3 security guards not helping her?? I saw it on "Msn today". Google it! here's one link to the video click here
It's awful how all of those people standing around watching 3-4 other persons beating up a 15 year old and even continuining beating her even as she lies defenceless on the ground.

Replies

2010-02-18T09:16:00.000+02:00

angie nader said...

oh your in KSA now? do you really feel yourself breathing sand?

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Yes I have been here since october. When I first arrived I think it took 2 weeks or so to get used to the dusty air. My nose was bothering me and sometimes even bleeding because of it. Now my nose got used to it and I don't notice that it's sand-dust we are breathing, unless when it's windy and more sand-dust than usual blows into the home through ventilation. I feel the smell of sand and feel the air I'm breathing really thick and dry. It's awful, I hate it!

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angie nader sa...

now im reminded of watermelon...and there is none here :(
we all go through uninspiring times... recently ive been feeling so drained and depressed...its trully pathetic! haha
take your time...i love reading your blog!
you always talk about the common things in life and i love it!

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Haha batikha/watermelon is my favorite =) I hope you feel better soon, it's difficult times when we are feeling like that but life is a rollercoaster with its ups and downs. Thank you so much for your comment, I'm happy you LOVE it, love is a big word =) I'll try to update more often, if I have something to write about ;)

To Batikha and my other readers

2010-02-15T10:08:00.000+02:00

I've lost my inspiration for this blog. It just feels as if I don't want to blog because "I have nothing to say" kind of. But keep visiting me sooner or later it will be filled with new blogposts, God willing =)

It was a tough night

2010-02-07T18:35:00.000+02:00

I woke up around 2 from a very familiar sound. The sound of rain smashing on the windows. I woke up with a smile. I went to the livingroom to look out the window, hoping I'll see big raindrops on the window. All I saw was the trees swinging back and forth and no rain. Not even ONE raindrop.

I never could imagine sand on the window could sound so much like raindrops. I went back, disappointed, to my bed. After a while the scent of dust/sand reached my nose. I felt like I was suffocating, I don't want to breathe SAND!!! It was such an awful night, and I hope I'll get to sleep tonight breathing air not sand.... I hope hope hope hope hope hope so.

Windy and sooo much sand everywhere

2010-02-02T15:45:00.002+02:00

Ye, I guess you can say that we have sandstorms here. And guess what? Yes exactly, I cleaned the whole home yesterday. Can you tell today? No of course not, there lies cm thick layer of sand on the floor.
Great, just GREAT!!!!!!!!

Challenged!

2010-01-30T10:15:00.002+02:00

I got an award from Jigartala. Thank you so much! I have no idea in what category but anyways LOL.

When you get it you're supposed to write 7 things about yourself and also give it away to 7 others and "link them".
So here we go. 7 things about myself:

1. I was dressed in black veil and black abaya for couple of years. Then I stopped and now I'm back in the black abaya-because of where I'm living. I don't wear it because I want too. Nothing wrong with it though, I believe it's everyone's choice to wear what they want.

2. Even though I love reading books I can't remember when I read one last.

3. Some movies I have seen them for about 100 times but still want to watch them if they are on TV. Like "Grease" and "Dirty dancing".

4. When I'm watching a movie on TV and it's commercial time, I change channel with the hopes of "Tom & Jerry" being shown on another channel , hahaha.

5. I HATE commercial breaks.

6. I often take quick decisions even though I really need to think them over. Trying to change that though :)

7. My biggest dream is to live and work in Sweden and spend vacations abroad in let's say: Lebanon.

Here's 7 GREAT bloggers:

My lil'sis
Zaaam
Kaaisaa
Ange
Umzacharia
Angie
Cecilia

Remember to challenge 7 other bloggers and link them in your blogpost, don't forget to link me too :)

^^

2010-01-27T19:25:00.001+02:00

Most women (mostly Saudis but also women from other countries) wear this:
Most don't wear gloves though!
Some doesn't wear the face veil.
I and many other foreigners just wear a black abaya without the veil. No, no one is wearing any other color on the abaya, only black. Some might be decorated with pearls etc but the abaya itself is black.

Most men wear this(mostly Saudis I assume):

Most foreign men wear "normal" clothes such as jeans and shirt.

Well it doesn't get much more interesting than this. Sorry :)

And ye, both pictures are from google. I didn't take them myself.

A swede in arabia

2010-01-27T19:19:00.000+02:00

Hot chocolate and a cheese sandwich.

(Unfortunately we bought the wrong bread this time. Usually we don't eat white bread...)

I got my nachos!

2010-01-26T17:15:00.000+02:00

I got my nachos yesterday :) And a plate of fettucine pasta with cajun chicken and shrimps. The person who was sharing with me got all the shrimps, phew!

A post is coming up, soon hopefully, about what is being worn in KSA by women and men.

Wanted to share this with you all

2010-01-25T16:10:00.000+02:00

Poem found on someone's blog who found it on someone else's blog...

“Woman was made from the rib of man,

She was not created from his head to top him,

nor from his feet to be stepped upon.

She was made from his side to be close to him,

from beneath his arm to be protected by him,

near his heart to be loved by him.”

I've been thinking

2010-01-24T09:36:00.000+02:00

And I can't stop thinking about it....

Please could someone bring me nachos?? The same as we ate in the weekend. Oh it was so tasty, even if it was cheese on them but the salsa was really spicy so in some kind of way it all made sense.

Oh where are my nachos????

Picture borrowed from here

Just thinking...

2010-01-23T16:14:00.000+02:00

When I was a teenager I had a dream about adopting a black baby and raise it by myself. I couldn't imagine myself being married. I wanted to be pregnant and have children, but I never wanted to give birth haha.
Okey of course I didn't wish to get pregnant at that age, but it was like a dream of the future for me.

What did you dream about as teenagers?

I don't know...

2010-01-16T15:38:00.000+02:00

I closed my swedish blog but somehow I'm missing it, even though I'm not bloggin. I'm not even blogging here. For the moment I'm just feeling tired and feeling as if i have nothing worth reading about. So why blog?

The reason why there is privacy setting for my swedish blog is because I am not ready to delete it but I dont want to keep it open either with all my posts available. So even though it says that you dont have access to "this blog" when you try to go to it doesnt mean someone else has. Because no one but myself got access. It's closed for time being. Knowing myself well enough, I can easily say: the swedish blog will be back. But not now. Maybe tomorrow, maybe next week or maybe next year. I don't know.

Uffff I'm stuffed

2010-01-12T15:46:00.000+02:00

Pancakes filled with nutella. 3 of them. And a big glass of orange juice. Aaaaargh 2 pancakes would've been more than enough. I'm so stuffed now

Let me know

2010-01-12T12:05:00.003+02:00

Your favorite songs. New and old

How do you eat avocados?

2010-01-11T10:41:00.000+02:00

I just ate one. It was delicious. We bought 3 pieces like a week ago. I cut one open too early so I had to throw it away. But this one, mmmm it was so soft and creamy. The best way, the ONLY way, to eat it is with lemon juice and salt. Some may not agree, and that's fine by me...How do you eat avocados?

Now I'm going to put on some music and start cleaning up. I've been so tired lately and household work has been laid aside. By lately I mean for about 2 months.... I hope I'll shapen up soon.

Malcolm X, the movie, is on TV right now. But when it started I had just woken up and wasn't at all in the mood to watch such a "heavy" movie. I wish I'd watched it from the beginning it seems to be an interesting movie. Oh well, I'm sure I'll get another chance someday :)

I know I know

2010-01-09T20:04:00.000+02:00

I haven't been updating lately but so many things are happening in my life lately that I've only taken the time to post on my Swedish blog. But soon I'll be translating some of those post and publish them here for all of you to read. Because those posts/subjects are really important to me. It's about friends on the internet and new muslims.
Hang in there!

My year of 2009, month by month

2010-01-07T09:48:00.000+02:00

January: my husband comes and visits me in Sweden :)

February: depressed, but finally gets my broadband connected only 2 months delayed:(

March: This was the month when I left my own apartment and moved home to my parents. It wasn't easy moving and get rid of all my stuff. Oh my God how much money I just threw away by giving and selling all my things...:S

April: I jogged everyday and spent a lot of time excercising and trying to handle my extreme.

May: I took walks everyday for at least one hour to "memorize the Swedish nature and my surroundings". I knew I was about to miss it extremely...That was sad...Oh sweet nature of Sweden when am I going to fill my lungs with your almost perfect air and green grass scents? Soon isn't soon enough...

June: Planning for the wedding, we did it in a few days *highfive to my husband*

July: We had our beautiful wedding and later honeymoon in Turkey.

August: I stayed alone in Lebanon with my family-in-law, this was also the month of Ramadan.

September: Ramadan ended and we celebrated. My husband came and visited us. I was happy not to be "alone" anymore. I was missing him so much...

October: I got the flu, fixed papers for my visa application, a stupid hairdresser fixed the ugliest hair do on me(yes with a scissor), and I got depressed because of that LOL(not funny)

November: Me and my husband went back and visited the family in law again and celebrated the new year.

December: celebrated my birthday and I even got a birthday cake with candles and my name on it :)

An advice from me

2009-12-26T09:22:00.002+02:00

Don't bake in the evening(or at any time for that matters) if you'll be too tired to clean up afterwards when you're done...

Less tired today :)

2009-12-26T09:21:00.000+02:00

I went to bed at 9 oclock last night. But I couldn't fall asleep immediately, but I got a surprise in the morning. I was "allowed" to turn the alarm off. Yey!!!! So we got couple of hours more sleep. So today Iam feeling pretty normal with minimum sleepiness :)

I've just ate breakfast, 2 wholegrain toasts with jam and cheese and a mug of nescafe.
I'm going to take a shower now and get ready because soon my cellphone will be ringing and my husband will ask me to go down meet him in the parkinglot. We are going to visit some friends.
It's thursday today and that means weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

^o^

2009-12-26T09:17:00.000+02:00

After lunch which was so delicious I got started arranging the home. Made the bed and mopped the floor. Just now I hanged the newly washed bedsheets to dry and I'm going to rest for a while before I get started with the dishes. I don't have a lot of dishes to do but only the thought of it makes me tired.

So what are you all doing on the day before christmas eve? I know that my parents are decorating right now or are already done. Because this is the day for it. As they have been doing ever since....Well ever since forever :) I so wish I could be with them... Christmas holiday is such a wonderful time, family gathers and everyone are happy and enjoying everyone's company...........

Christmas has always felt magical to me. It still does, even though Iam a muslim and have been so since 2000. But christmas is special. Christmas is the time of year when my family get together, its dark oand cold utside and cosy and light and warm indoor.. And you just feel so hopeful about life and believe that anything can happen. Anything at all. Whatever you wish for. Magic....

Heavenly!!!!!!!!!!

2009-12-26T09:08:00.000+02:00

Cut chicken file, cut potato and chop up an onion. Cut a tomato too if you're into those. That's what I did since anyway I needed half of a tomato for the sallad. And to leave half tomato in the refrigerator is..Not a good idea, it just going to be thrown away since it's holiday and we won't be eating at home for the next coming 2 days.

Okey, back to the recipe.

Pour oil in a casseroul, let the oil get warm and put the potato in it. Make sure to move the potato around all the time so it gets "fried" a bit allover. Put in the onion and the tomato pieces. Let them all swet a bit, salt and move around so it doesnt get burned.
Now put in the chicken pieces which you already let roll around in curry, black pepper and salt.
Move everything around and let it swett some more. Then pour in some water and buillon for more taste. Let it boil slowly with a lid for about 15 minutes depending on how big the potato pieces are.
Boil tasteless but salted rice and serve with a sallad.

Bon appetite, I hope we are going to eat very soon because it smells soooooooooooo wonderful and I'm starving.

Oooooooooooooooh!

2009-12-26T09:01:00.000+02:00

Mom and dad you're the best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you both so much and Iam so happy and thankful for your greatness!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll be "floating on clouds" throughout the rest of the year and next one too!!!!!!

"floating on clouds" ye I know that there is probably no such "saying" in English, but I'm swedish so that's what happens with direct translation in my head :P:P:P

Goodmorning y'all

2009-12-23T09:03:00.000+02:00

So 8 hours sleep are NOT enough for me. I need to sleeeeeeeeeeep... Zzzzzzzzzz so exhausted...

Well I've had my cup of nescafe so I should get a bit more alert any time soon, or so I hope.

Today I have lots of homework to do. Not actual homework as you get when you are studying, but home work. Work in the home. Really funny things. Like ironing.......

And yes Iam going to do chicken today. But since we don't have things for mograbieh (as if I know how to do it haha) and I don't like molokhiye it's just going to be a chicken n potato spiced with curry and served with rice.

I can't believe it's wednesday already. Tomorrow it's weekend here yey. Tomorrow we are going out to eat, YEEY :D That reminds me, I have to wash the bedsheets today :)

Okey, I better get started... Wish you a nice day!

Why do the morning arrive so fast?

2009-12-22T09:59:00.000+02:00

Maybe the night won't feel so short if you go to sleep earlier. I guess that's the answer ;)

Well yesterday at 11 I prepared myself and went to bed but I couldn't fall asleep till around 1 oclock. So I got 6 hours sleep. Then I woke up but fell asleep again for another hour then it was time to wake up. Today I'm going to bed earlier. Like now. It's not even 11 in the noon and I want to go to bed/sleep. Hahaha

I haven't done anything today, yet. Oh, just drank nescafe and ate one digestive biscuit. Waw! I better go and get something more to eat. There is a banana lying in the kitchen, poor banana lying there all by itself. But no I ate 3 bananas yesterday so NO MORE BANANAS FOR ME!!! Just can't stand the thought of the mushiness:(

I was actually planning on cooking chicken today. But it feels as if I won't be able to, too tired. And besides I didn't even figure out HOW to cook it, I mean what kind of dish to make of it..... So I'm just gonna do hamburgers and fries since DH said he'd like that today even if we ate that yesterday. We just ate one each because we had some food left from the day before. Okey I just ate hamburger but DH ate fish too :)

Ouf I'm lacking enthusiasim , or however its spelled, about blogging today. I gonna stop, maybe I have something more interesting to say after I got some food in my belly :P
But if you have any tasty recipes that contains chicken, please leave it in the comment field :D:D:D:D

I haven't told you this....

2009-12-21T10:07:00.000+02:00

But last month I had to experience some rudeness and some lack of security. I was chocked and my DH was surprised I opened my mouth hahaha.

We were sitting in the plane. It was freezing. Really freezing! Like shaking teeth freezing. I asked the flight hostess: Excuse me, can I have a blanket, it's very cold.
Her answer: NO BLANKETS ON BOARD!!!!!!!!
I wish I didn't talk to her because her reply made it much colder. What happened to normal behaviour? A normal answer on a normal question... A perfect answer would be: "Yes of course we do, just a second I'll get one for you". Or the second perfect answer would simply be: "Sorry, unfortunately we don't have blankets on board."

When we got the questionnaire(spelling, dont know:P) about how our trip was and their service etc.
You can bet we told them about the service. And we also told them that since they keep the airplane so cold they could at least supply frozen passengers with blankets....

Returning back the plane was hot and warm :) I'd like to think it was due to our complaint, but I am not that naive..

Diagonnally infront of us was a woman sitting with her toddler. She put him on the seat and put the seatbelt on him. He didn't seem to be able to sit up straight by himself. I was looking at them and thinking to myself, why didn't the mother get a babybelt for her son? I looked at the mother again and realized, maybe she doesn't know english, maybe she doesn't know about the baby belt... Before boarding the plane I heard her telling one of the flight hosts that it was her first plane trip. After worrying for a while I finally asked the hostess while pointing at the little boy: Excuse me, but don't you have babybelt for the baby?
The hostess smiled a bit and said: Oh no, I'm sorry we don't.

My face got red and I could just not believe what she just said. How is it possible? No security for the young ones? OH MY GOD! Iam so not flying with this company when I inshallah get a baby. Or I buy my own babybelt or maybe I could bring the baby's car seat and place it on the plane chair and fasten it with the belt. But I won't fly anywhere without safety for my baby.

What I love about Saudiarabia

2009-12-21T09:55:00.000+02:00

The sometimes purple sky and the sliced moon shining strong
Palm trees
Clean nice wide streets
Nice big malls
The birds living in the big tree just outside my window
The birds visiting us everyday, sitting on our window
I do actually, strangely enough, like wearing an abaya when I go out
The food courts in the malls. If you're a group of people wanting to eat together but not everyone wants to eat burger. You'll find indian spicy curry food, pizza, pasta, shawarma, seafood, sushi EVERYTHING in the same place. EXCELLENT!

I like it. A lot

It stinks!!!

2009-12-20T12:29:00.002+02:00

Ye it really stinks in here. I'm cooking potato and onion.. Hm, neighbours banging on my door any time soon? I hope not.

Sweet saturday

2009-12-19T13:02:00.000+02:00

My cold is gone, it never developed into the flu, thank God.
I am not sure why, but Iam feeling sleepy all the time... Well that's pretty much as usual, but somehow thing's are feeling different. I guess it's the weather. It's changing, becoming winter.

I am waiting for DH to come home so we can have lunch together. Bamiye, rice and sallad. But I'm not in the mood for food.... But Iam hungry, weird.

So I've cleaned up the flat today, it was a mess. Dust everywhere, but I just couldn't bring myself to clean it up. I have been so tired this last week. Could hardly even get out of bed. But now, thank God, I'm feeling better. Still tired but much much better.

I hope you have a nice weekend

13th of december 2009

2009-12-13T10:35:00.000+02:00

Yes, unfortunately I still have a cold. I've already sneezed like 500 times today. I woke up at 6 today but forced myself to fall asleep again but at 8 I couldn't wait anymore. I left the bed and went to the bathroom, did the morning routine later to the kitchen and started to prepare for breakfast.
I'm thinking NOT to cook today. Maybe I should just take up some of the things mother in law made for us when we were visiting them? Maybe I should do that and just make some maggi potato and sallad....
Oh I better take my C-vitamine drink and panodil now or Iam pretty sure I'll be fed with it later, as yesterday..:D

Too tired

2009-12-12T08:50:00.000+02:00

I slept so deeply last night I didn't even hear my cellphone's battery alarm. My husband had to turn the cellphone off. Well after he found it lying under my head and pillow. I didn't hear the alarm ring in the morning today either. I was sleeping so deeply. I'm still feeling tired and my head feels so heavy. Maybe it's a cold. My husband just got well after about a week of the flu.... I hope I don't get sick, it's not been long since last time...

Ouf, the laundry is in the machine getting clean-hopefully, and some dishes are waiting for my care and the house is in big need of dusting and mopping. I better go and do that now and get started with dinner.

Hope you all have a nice day!

Did you miss me?

2009-12-11T07:11:00.001+02:00

Oh yeah, I'm back at home now. Our place is in real need of cleaning. Big time! But I am not going to do that today because we are going to enjoy the last day of holiday together. And we are planning to move the furnitures around in the bedroom, so I guess it might be some cleaning afterall..
We've had a wonderful holiday with my family inlaw. Lots of tasty food and lost of lack of excercise resulted in a weight gain of 2 kgs during this last 2 weeks! That's not good!!! But Iam getting back to my good old habits. Wii excercise for an hour, daily and kelloggs special for breakfast. During my stay at dear family inlaw, I requested 2 chocolate croissants everyday. LOOOL!

Today or maybe next week we are going to look/buy a winterjacket/coat for me. When we arrived 2 days ago it was 9 degrees outside. ONLY! But I'm hesitating a bit about the jacket... Do they really wear the jacket UNDER the abaya? I'm not really sure but that's what I expect. When we go out today shopping for groceries it'll be my mission to look for jacketwearing women ;)
I have some other posts to edit but I'll post them later. Probably not today.

I hope you all have had some nice days!

And by the way, I found vanilla sticks at the groceristore in Leb. Yeeeey, so next week I'll be doing my own vanillasugar.

Celebrations

2009-12-02T16:32:00.002+02:00

I'm spending time with the family in law and celebratring eid that's why I haven't been blogging. But I'm just fine hamdella. Hope you all enjoyed eid and got to spend some nice time with your loved ones.

Happy celebration

2009-11-26T21:39:00.001+02:00

Happy eid everyone!

Sugar and caffein kick

2009-11-25T16:24:00.000+02:00

Yes that's what I need right now in the late afternoon, and that's exactly what I'm taking. Maxwell house 3 in 1(yumiiiiiiiii) and digestive biscuits with nutella on.. Ehm, that nutella is still evil!!!

I cooked a dish today with potato, onion, meat, crushed tomato, creme fraiche and spiced with curry, pepper and salt. Served with rice and sallad of course. The meal was appreciated and praised. LOL, if you never get praised for your cooking try the following. Cook a really yucky meal and serve it for 2 days in a row(or more) and then cook whatever you usually do. I promise you it'll be appreciated ;)

It's important to try out some new recipes ~~now and then,~~ everyday haha. You should not be afraid of trying new things. WHAT! Did I actually write that? Hahaha, it's funny how someone change a little bit from day to day and then a year or two has passed and the difference is huge.
Oh isn't life wonderful? I'm so happy finally living in my OWN ~~house~~, flat. My all own cute home. Mmmm, ops that's right OUR home :D

Oh well, now I'll get back to my nutella biscuits and finish drinking my 3 in 1 caffein boost before it gets too cold. I hope you're all having a nice day!

What's your afternoon snack?

ATTENTION EVERYONE!

2009-11-24T10:37:00.000+02:00

Never put a glass of water in the refrigerator and "garlicfood".....Or you know, never put "garlicfood" in the refrigerator PERIOD! Eat it all, don't save any. Our refrigerator smells like an arab on a full garlic kebab sauce diet.

I always put a glass of water in the refrigerator before I go to bed in the evening so I can get cold milk with my cornflakes the next morning. Yes, we use powder milk.
Let's just say that neither one of us ate our cornflakes, they tasted like yesterday's dinner.
We both ate bisquits for breakfast instead.

Arabs! Don't get offended. I just don't like the scent to be in my refrigerator....

Will the neighbours come banging on my door?

2009-11-23T10:12:00.000+02:00

Well Iam cooking "italian meatballs and tomato creme sauce" the house smells as much garlic as possible. I think I have to open the windows to let some of the smell out. But then will all the people nearby come banging on my door wanting my food? At least I think the people around here like garlic... Hm...

What about you? Is garlic in the food a "YES!!!" or a big "NO NO!"???

I'm so tired!

2009-11-22T17:45:00.000+02:00

I can't even explain to you how tired Iam. It just hit me so suddenly-the tiredness. It began on thursday night. I was feeling cold and the headache started. Friday I woke up at 9.45 and the day was pretty okey. Saturday I woke up at 7 in the morning, excercised for 30 minutes and after breakfast I went to bed again and slept for a whole hour. Later in the evening I almost fell asleep on the sofa already at 9.30. Today I could hardly leave the bed in the morning, not until 9 oclock when I had to or my husband would have to eat breakfast all alone before leaving for work. At 5 I went to bed again and slept for an hour. I've had headache all day and I still have it till this very minute.
Oh well the water is hot now, I'll make myself a cup of 3 in 1 maxwell.. Maybe that'll give me a boost.

But what's wrong with me? I don't have any symptoms of getting sick... I'm just feeling so tired and having a bad headache....

I'll tell you again

2009-11-22T11:11:00.000+02:00

Football is just a sport! Yes, I understand that a lot of people depend on playing football, or training the players etc. Football is sport AND business for so many people, and yes I can even agree to football being someone's life. But come on people, should we fight over football? Kill eachother? Start a war??

Come on now settle down and behave yourself.........

What's going on?

2009-11-22T08:56:00.000+02:00

Yesterday I was so tired and sleepy I fell asleep on the sofa at 9.30. This morning the alarm went off at 8.15 but I was to tired to wake up and kept snoozing the alarm till 9 oclock. I ate breakfast and drank nescafe but Iam still tired/sleepy. And on top of that I have a headache....

I just want to know... What's going on? Am I getting sick??

Today's outfit

2009-11-17T14:28:00.000+02:00

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Help!!!!!!!!!!

2009-11-17T09:57:00.003+02:00

The nutella cream is taking over!

Arab food!!

2009-11-15T10:26:00.000+02:00

Ye, I'm cooking bamiye. It's pretty much cooking itself right now, well with the help of the stove of course. I'll just do some rice and a simple sallad then I'm done cooking for the day :) But I have to start cleaning now, I have so many things to do today!! I guess that's my answer on my "prayers" before when I was "complaining" about having nothing to do :)

Hope you're having a nice day!

Welcome!

2009-11-14T09:57:00.000+02:00

Welcome UK, Sri Lanka, U.S, SaudiArabia and Egypt!

I just discovered I have readers from there :) Yey :) Well I guess some of you at least is blogfollowed by me :D

Who are you? Comment and share your blog with me :)
Oh well I guess the one from the U.S is you Angie, right? :)

Outfit

2009-11-11T11:16:00.002+02:00

Well ever since the "blog-era" started one of the most common things to post about has been "Today's outfit". So I was thinking, why don't I do that too? Iam sure all of you are curious to know what I wear and how I look like. So during the day I WILL be posting the picture of my outfit.

But I can't now, I have things waiting to be done. But stay tuned because anytime during the day you'll see me here on my blog in flesh and blood(yuck, but that's how the expression goes right?)

See you later!

Sometimes things are just wack!!!

2009-11-10T15:45:00.001+02:00

You changed my whole life!

2009-11-08T16:40:00.003+02:00

I fell in love today.

Ye, I know CB beat up his gf........ His songs and voice are still the same though. Just great!

Today!

2009-11-08T11:39:00.002+02:00

Today it's father's day in Sweden. Congrats to universe's best father, my dad :)

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So now I'm done cleaning up, just have to do the dishes and do dinner. It'll be fish and mashed potato(plus fried rice from yesterday) and a sallad drowned in mayo+lemon.

Okey I better get started now. What's are you eating for lunch/dinner today???

Changes

2009-11-07T11:01:00.002+02:00

Okey so I'm doing some changes. Just with the name so far. But I have plans on changing the profile picture and also change my nickname from "Pink flower" to something else. I haven't come up with the "right" name yet. Not for my profile nor for my website. If you have any ideas, feel free to share.

http://pinkflowersblog.blogspot.com

that was my original address....

Last night and yesterday

2009-11-05T11:11:00.002+02:00

I woke up several times during the night. Had some weird feeling. Can't explain. But I had to lie down on the sofa instead. But I think I slept like 5 minutes after I lied down. Hehe

We have almost just finished breakfast, tea, Special K and milk. I missed my Nescafé :( We drank the last 2 yesterday. I've cleaned up, did the dishes and ironed some clothes. Funny, I only ironed clothes that aren't my own. I don't care for my own, they don't get so wrinkly and besides I'm just home anyway and I soon going to wash them all over again, so what's the point?

Now Iam soon to jump into the shower and freshen up and later we are going out. Yesterday when we were going out I didn't think about my jeans till I sat in the car. Ooops! I was supposed to bring them with me to change them for a smaller(wiho) size. But I guess I'll do that today instead:D

Yesterday I was taking some photos of myself. Ye, I tend to do that when I'm feeling bored. And because we don't have a whole body mirror, yet ;) I NEED ONE!! PLEASE ;) Well anyway, going through the photos I noticed that my white favorite jeans so DO NOT fit me anymore. That was tough:( I love those jeans! But now they just doesn't look nice on me anymore, so I better hide them deep in the closet some where and don't wear them anymore!

I realize I have to buy more trousers too. All of them just don't fit as they should. Well I have one pair that fits perfectly, well okey almost perfect anyway. But a girl needs more than one right? Yesterday when we went windowshopping I got so annoyed. They had 70% sales but it was still expensive :( Boring people who can't do a REAL sale!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday we had dinner at a restaurant named Samurai or something like that. The food was NOT tasty. It was a total disappointment for both of us. But today is a new day and we are planning on eating out again. So another restaurant and another meal and probably another taste :D I hope we'll find something delicious I'm really hungry!

A tip(this is what we usually do): Order one plate of sallad and one plate of a meal of your choice. In this way you'll get a good load of fresh vegetables and cooked food in the same time. Other times we just order 2 different meals of whatever we want and share. In this way we get to taste 2 different meals :) Supersmart :P

Okey, that's all for now, Have a nice day! I'm out!

A list!!!

2009-11-04T22:02:00.002+02:00

Today's outfit:
White jeans with a ---- top
Today's shower:
Soon
Today's hairstyle:
Straight bang and the rest curly
Today's big event:
MSN with my younger sister
Today's plan:
Shower 'n go out
Today's want to have:
Wii Fit
Today's longing:
Hm....Nothing
Today's drug:
KitKat
Today's most boring:
Dust
Today's most stupid:
That I keep pushing the off button on the remote control when I just want to turn off the volume....
Today's nicest:
MSN with sis *love*
Today's shopping:
Food at samurai
Today's sweets:
Kitkat chunky
Today's mood:
Harmonic(?)
Today's sick:
Coughs
Today's compliment:
I'm absolutely the best! Okey, not exactly that, but can't write the best compliment of the day, it's private :D
Today's love:
Pasta with tomato/garlic sauce. So simple but heavenly delicious
Today's happiness:
Waking up beside YOU
What's annoying you right now:
That Iam not able to see my newly updates and comments right a way
When did you wake up today:
Which of the times?? 2, 6 and finally 8.15
Did you sleep in your own bed tonight?:
I don't have my own bed. We share.

Did someone else sleep in your bed tonight?:
I just told you I don't have my OWN bed, how stupid you are!!!
Are you wearing socks right now:
Yes
What do you long for the most right now?:
Swedish summer actually

What doesn't break you only makes you stronger

2009-11-04T16:32:00.004+02:00

Sometimes we don't learn from our mistakes
Sometimes we've no choice but to walk away, away
Tried to break my heart
Well it's broke
Tried to hang me high
Well I'm choked
Wanted rain on me
Well I'm soaked
Soaked to the skin

It's the end where I begin
It's the end where I begin

Now I'm alive
and my ghosts are gone
I've shed all the pain
I've been holding on
The cure for a heart
Is to move along, is to move along
So move along

What don't kill a heart
Only makes it strong

This text is from the song by The Script - The end where I begin.
I couldn't say it any better. The song says: The cure for a heart is to move along...
My heart is cured and whole. And today bigger and stronger than it ever has been.

Kids!!!!!!!!

2009-11-04T15:39:00.004+02:00

To my neighbours the good parents: Couldn't you find something better for your kids to occupy themselves while you ignore the persons YOU brought to life? Did you have to let them play with the doors and jump in the stairway? And I'd also like to mention that you really didn't teach them well enough to sing. It's hurting my ears when they shout outside my door. COME ON!!!
And another thing, why do you go out in the stairway to comfort your crying child? Why don't you take her in your arms and go INSIDE YOUR HOME?!?!?!? Why ..................

The day so far

2009-11-04T11:45:00.002+02:00

Pasta drowned in tomato sauce which I've been boiling for a whole hour with 2 garlic pieces, so we are for sure going to smell supersexy the rest of the day.. I also chopped up the left-over chicken from yesterday and let it slide down into the sauce. Too bad we don't have basil at home, that would be such a great combination. Pasta, chicken/basil/tomato/garlic sauce. Yummi! But I don't expect us to feel so full after this lunch, but I made some extra sallad so I hope that'll be enough.

I've been taking it kind of easy today but still finished lots of things. Sweeping, mopping, laundry, dishes, cooking, blog and reading some blogs. And it's no even 1 oclock!

Iam going to continue now reading the blogs(not done yet), drink my strawberry/mango juice and then it's lunch time! Ye, I had to pour some juice up my belly was screaming for something. So in the choice between juice and kitkat, the juice won. At least today!

It's how I arrange my mind

2009-11-03T16:22:00.003+02:00

A 92-year-old, petite, well-poised and proud man, who is fully dressed each morning by eight o’clock, with his hair fashionably combed and shaved perfectly, even though he is legally blind, moved to a nursing home today.

His wife of 70 years recently passed away, making the move necessary. After many hours of waiting patiently in the lobby of the nursing home, he smiled sweetly when told his room was ready.

As he maneuvered his walker to the elevator, I provided a visual description of his tiny room, including the eyelet sheets that had been hung on his window.

‘I love it,’ he stated with the enthusiasm of an eight-year-old having just been presented with a new toy.

‘Mr. Jones, you haven’t seen the room; just wait.’

‘That doesn’t have anything to do with it,’ he replied. ‘Happiness is something you decide on ahead of time. Whether I like my room or not doesn’t depend on how the furniture is arranged … It’s how I arrange my mind. I already decided to love it.
‘It’s a decision I make every morning when I wake up. I have a choice; I can spend the day in bed recounting the difficulty I have with the parts of my body that no longer work, or get out of bed and be thankful for the ones that do. Each day is a gift, and as long as my eyes open, I’ll focus on the new day and all the happy memories I’ve stored away…. just for this time in my life’.

Old age is like a bank account. You withdraw from what you’ve put in.

So, my advice to you would be to deposit a lot of happiness in the bank account of memories! Thank you for your part in filling my ‘Memory Bank’. I am still depositing.

Remember the five simple rules to be happy:
1. Free your heart from hatred.
2. Free your mind from worries.
3. Live simply.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less.

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So healthy!

2009-11-03T09:03:00.003+02:00

Milk and special cereals for breakfast. I remember when I tried to eat them for more than 6 months ago. I thought they tasted like cardboard, not that I have ever tasted one but my imagenation is good. And I know they still taste the same, but you get used to it. I hear they are healthy so I'll keep eating them.

I'm doing some laundry. The bathroom carpet is placed in a big bowl soaked with water and detergent and is waiting for its turn in the washing machine. I'll try to make it clean or else it should go meet with the other dirty things in the garbage container in the street. Why do you produce white bathroom carpets, or white carpets at all??? A stupid idea. Nothing mentioned about the people who buy those....

It's 10 o'clock and the chicken is lying for thaw(found it in the dictionary but I don't know how to use the word)
Dinner will be chicken and my "famous" potato and sallad. We still don't have any rice. Mmmmm I miss eating rice, it's my favorite. I want to make chickensoup(yes I have to have rice in it) and I want to cook normal ordinary yummi rice. Oooooh how much I love rice, it's ridiculous. But the love for rice only goes to Basmati. Okey and sometimes jasmin rice is acceptable too. But basmati rice is preferable.

It feels as if this is going to be a pretty good day. Iam feeling relatively alert and I would like to take the curtains down for washing. But they are put so highly and I can't reach without standing on some high chair/ladder, which we don't have.

Hope you all will have a nice day inshallah!

Thoughts on a Monday afternoon

2009-11-02T12:49:00.003+02:00

****** my post disappeared due to fail of connection..........................

Well, I was just saying I'm waiting to eat lunch. I'm pretty hungry :D About an hour ago I finished cleaning. Almost usual time even if I fell asleep on the sofa just after breakfast. I was so tired, I guess I needed some extra rest. It's fine, I know the reason of the tiredness :)

Do you realize it's already November??? And that the year of 2009 almost has come to its' end??? Subhanallah time flies by! Well not always, only when you're busy with doing things and not just sitting around doing nothing waiting for life to happen...... Hamdella

I want to

2009-11-01T16:52:00.002+02:00

I want to:::
watch:
New Moon
The curious case of Benjamin Button
Jennifer's body
Obsessed

change:
my jeans to a smaller size
hairstyle *sigh*

buy:
PJ
more clothes

I miss:::
jogging
playing wii
family
fresh air
my jackets
my boots
and my training outfit............

Lunch is waiting

2009-11-01T13:10:00.002+02:00

To get eaten.

Pasta and meat sauce with parsley + sallad, is on the menu today. And OJ to that, have to refill my iron levels. Parsley (contains lots of iron) and OJ with Vitamin C which makes it easier for the body to consume(?) the iron.

Aotch, I hate the "first days". I love that those only comes once a month.

I only did a quick cleaning up today, put the laundry away, did the dishes, cooked and now waiting to eat. Later in the afternoon I'll freshen up. I guess that's enough for the day. I'm not feeling great.........

Everyday

2009-11-01T13:07:00.001+02:00

Morning: Nescafe 3 in 1, I feel more alert after it, don't know if it's my imagenation or the caffeine, all I care about is getting alert ;)
Evening: Tea

Sunday

2009-11-01T10:01:00.003+02:00

So ye, I haven't had the time to blog for some days. I think you can stop expecting me to do that, I just don't have time and nothing special to blog about.

The last couple of days we have been doing this:
waking up late
biking
BBQ
shopping(tops, shoes and jeans for me yey)
cleaning/laundry/cooking etc

Well I have to go.. Have to fix some lunch, have no idea what to dooooooooo!!!!

Goodmorning!

2009-10-28T06:13:00.003+02:00

I woke up at 5 yey, stayed in bed for another 45 minutes till I finally left the coziness=cozy-ness(is that even a word? LOL) I've had my 'nescafe', and now I'm just relaxing and checking some things on the internet.

People thought I wouldn't be able to wake up in the morning. Hah!!! Did I prove you wrong yet?? Well tiredness wasn't mentioned, just that I wouldn't be able to wake up. :)

I think I better go and put some laundry in the washing machine and maybe do the dishes from this morning and last night? Ye, I saved them from yesterday till today, because I didn't want to waste time standing in the kitchen. Do you blame me?

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I want to go shopping LOL. So many things I need to buy and ye some clothes too. Maybe after tomorrow. I guess no need to hope for later today. Too much things to do! It's okey >D

Hello, I'm back!!!!

2009-10-27T06:05:00.003+02:00

Ye, I haven't had the time to blog or read any of your blogs in a while. But now I'm back, but who knows for how long it'll lasts?

I won't be able to be connected all day as before, I have too much to do hamdella. I've missed it. It's the most wonderful feeling I get when I sit down in the afternoon after all work. So satisfying. And beside I don't have the same access to the internet as before. From 24/7 (well except for for the daily 3 hours when we didn't have any electricity) to around 1 hour a day.

I'll try to keep blogging everyday anyway. I can always type the post and later when I get access to the internet publish it :D

So what have you been up to while I was away?

What did I tell you?

2009-10-22T01:40:00.001+03:00

Didn't I tell you yesterday that I'll wake up today as my normal self?
Well thats exactly what happened. And thank God for that because I really needed to be in a good mood, patience and smiling. It was such a long day today. Just hope that our efforts make a difference. Inshallah.

>''<

2009-10-20T22:01:00.001+03:00

I know I shouldn't let it get to me. I'm so upset and annoyed. Too much of the same stuff at one day. I'm tired, annoyed, upset, and angry....
But tomorrow is a new day and I hope I'll wake up as my normal self...

Yiiii

2009-10-19T15:39:00.004+03:00

I went to the hospital today, to meet the doctor and get my test results. We arrived at the hospital at 10.50. My appointment with the doctor was at 11, so we were on time ;)
At 11.50 the doctor welcomed us. Finally, after some nagging from dear mother in law :D I just sat down as a good swedish girl, as usual ;) But I guess I better learn how NOT to have patience or I'll end up waiting for 100 hours for my turn... Bad system.

Anyway, the doctor listened to my heart and heard it beating your name :P It was normal and everything seems to be okey, hamdella.
Later the doctor told us to go to the reception in the other building to get the testresults and later go to room 212 to get them validated.

Total time of hospital visit: 120 minutes.
Actual time with the doctor: 10 mnutes

Something about nothing

2009-10-19T00:43:00.002+03:00

We went to a birthday party today. It was pretty fun, I acted as a photographer and spent most of the party taking pictures. Smart move :D

Later we went and ate at chopstick. It was delish, but not as delicious as it use to be. I don't know if that was because of the restaurant or because my husband wasn't with us. Food does taste better when he is around and places looks more beautiful and live just goes on so smoothly:D

Iam going to the doctor tomorrow to get the test results, wish me good luck.

Saturday

2009-10-17T19:38:00.002+03:00

So before yesterday, I went to the doctor. And you know what? My arm is still in its normal color. I just got a small spot from where he put the needle. Last time I gave blood for a test I got a big ugly bruice.

They were friendly and professional at the hospital. They had lots of patience because I actually was kind of annoying. Not by meaning though, but I just want to get it right:)

I'm feeling better today, I think Iam 100% well now, but Iam just feeling tired and I just took a nap of 3 hours today... Hm....

I ate my way throu this day

2009-10-16T02:24:00.002+03:00

Since I didn't have breakfast till around 11-11.30, except for some juice and chocolate, I had to make up for it somehow. For lunch I ate 2 portions of lubiye and rice(my kind of portions okey!) ½ pomegranate. For snack I ate 2 mini bananas equal to one:D For late late snack I ate one avocado and one apple. One after eachother of course. And now I'm drinking some more juice. I need to regain some power that I've lost during my sick days. I'm trying to build up my body so it won't get sick like this another time. I HATE being sick. I'm so not used to being totally knocked out and not being able to do anything. Not even able to smile:( I have been so tired. I'm still not 100% back to 'me'. But pretty close. But I won't rush anything, going to fast may kick me back where I've just been----->totally down under suffering from the flu. Don't want to go there again. To get the flu once a year or even 2 is acceptable, but not three times. I've already have the flu twice this year, so I guess I'm safe now? Inshallah.

Ye, I still have headache...

Goodnight

Feeling great! Hungry, thirsty and with a twist of headache

2009-10-15T09:56:00.003+03:00

Great start of the day don't you think? :P

I'm sitting here fully dressed to go out and full make up and I fixed my hair. Or well at least I combed it ;) Iam waiting for my mother in law, she is taking me to the doctor for a check up. I'm nervous for it because it's only my second time to go to the doc's here. And the reason I'm hungry and is because I haven't eaten for 14 hours. And ye I think the headache will disappear if I could just have something to drink. But I have to do the check up on an empty stomach. SO, I hope she comes home soon so we can go..

Other than that, I'm feeling better today. I slept last night at 12 and woke up 5.20. So at least 5 hours of continuous sleep:) Oh that's reminds me. Things that interrupts my sleep. Sometimes I forget that there is actually humans living here. All you hear are cars' related sounds. Actually the cars' honk. Is it honk? I'm not sure. But anyway, the people here use it to communicate. But all they wanna say anyway is: Get the hell out of my way!. I'm so tired of the sound!!!!!!! I hate it! All you people who communicate by throwing yourself on the car honk: Take a breath, have patience and whatever you do, DOOOOONT KEEP HONKING!!!!" Honking should be illegal. Hah, as if someone here around follow such laws anyways....*sigh*

Goodmorning!

2009-10-14T16:11:00.003+03:00

NOOOO I didn't wake up just now :D
I actually woke up at 8.30 but stayed in bed till 9 something :D
I was able to close laptop and lamps etc last night at 23.50 actually. I fell asleep almost immediately, but I woke up 40 minutes later of an itch in my throat. It took me about 2 hours to fall asleep again :S

So now it's about 4 oclock in the afternoon, I hope the evening comes soon because I'm sleepy...

My day so far:
Breakfast, 2 cheese sandwiches, tea, half 'granatäpple'
20 minutes after breakfast I took 1 panadol.
stomach ache after that....
took vitamins
puzzled for 2 hours
fixed some important things online
had lunch with parents-in-law
took shower
now relaxing a bit, surfing the net and listening to music

Iam doing my best not to fall asleep. If I sleep now I don't believe I'll wake up till around 8. And then I most definetely won't be able to fall asleep anytime before 12 midnight.

Maybe I'll have chocolate croissants for evening snack. Dear mother in law bought some for me in the morning. She got upset when she came home at 10 and found me already awake and with a huge breakfast already in my stomach, hehe. Just hope I get to put my hands on them before someone else does LOL. It's really like living at home with MY parents again with my sibblings. No way for 'saving things for later'. Eat it now or lose it. Hehe.

Goodnight?

2009-10-13T23:45:00.002+03:00

I ate, I took 2 panadol and here's the stomachache as a letter in the mail. Aotch.. I still do believe the stomachache is because of the panadol.

Anyways, you know what? Iam going to close everything and force myself to sleep. From now on Iam going to try to go to sleep at 12. Wish me good luck. I'm not so sure it going to work succesfully, but Iam going to try. So goodnight everyone!

Goodmorning y'all

2009-10-13T17:31:00.002+03:00

Okey it's almost evening now. Late afternoon. But if you don't sleep until 4 in the morning it's pretty noonish don't you think? At 4 that's when I fell asleep.... *sigh*

So today I'll only take one Cal-C-Vita since it contains caffeine, or was that the panadol? Well anyway Iam feeling much better today hamdella. I didn't even take any panadol today. My throat is still swallen but only on one of the sides) Hamdella.

New discoveries (for me) that I want to share with you:
If you get a bee sting, put a garlic piece on it, the juice helps a lot
If you have a sore throat gurgle several times a day with pure lemon juice

That's all for now:) I think Iam going to take a nap. I'm sleepy

I didn't sleep yet

2009-10-13T03:24:00.004+03:00

I closed the laptop, the lamps everything. I tried for a whole hour but just couldn't relax and sleep. I keep yawning but Iam feeling like dancing. Too much energy to sleep. How that is possible is a mystery to me. To have so much energy but still feel sleepier than ever.......

*update* great, now I got stomachache aswell..........maybe bec of the meds? even though I haven't taken any on an empty stomach?

My fears

2009-10-13T02:13:00.002+03:00

It's 2.15 at night. I'm afraid to go to sleep. For time being it feels okey to swallow liquids, still some pain, but okey. I don't have a headache anymore, just feeling feverish. But I fear that I'll wake up tomorrow and feeling as if I have 2 tennisballs in my throat and a bowling ball as my head...............

I think I might have tonsillitis

2009-10-12T20:09:00.002+03:00

"Symptoms of tonsillitis include a severe sore throat (which may be experienced as referred pain to the ears), painful/difficult swallowing, coughing, headache, myalgia (muscle aches), fever and chills. Tonsillitis is characterized by signs of red, swollen tonsils which may have a purulent exudative coating of white patches (i.e. pus). Swelling of the cheeks and neck may occur...."

Source

So why do I think I might have it? Well because I have:
a severe sore throat
painful AND difficult swallowing
headache
fever
red, swollen tonsils+white spots
swelling of neck...

Please, say it isn't so?

Today EVEN WORSE!

2009-10-12T13:38:00.002+03:00

Okey thank God for more sleeping hours last night:) And the lack of fever. I felt feverish till around 2 oclock at night then I slept and woke up around 6 I think. Of course I slept again :)

Finally at 12 today I said goodbye to the bed and left it all alone. I struggled with the breakfast(didn't know swallowing could give so much suffering) afterwards I took 2 panadol, 1 calcevita(vitamins and caffeine hmmm) and gave my throat a sterilisation(?) with lemon juice.

I sure hope I won't be forced to go to the doctor. I don't want to take anymore meds... !!!!!!!!!

Feeling worse today

2009-10-12T01:00:00.002+03:00

I didn't get much sleep last night. Maybe alltogether 2 hours. But I slept twice during the day instead. I just couldn't keep myself awake. Could hardly even stand on my two feet. Sooo weak. And I couldn't eat much either. Well later during the day I felt a little bit better, but the fever is back now even though I took 2 panadol 2 hours ago :(

Angepange: you're not updating why oh why?? I want to know what's happening with Jude, Faisal and Khalid!!!! So exciting :)

When I'll be rich (:p) I'll go and buy some books :) Iam so "thirsty" for sitting down with some candy or chocolate and read a good book from the beginning to the end, all after eachother. I believe that's how a book should be read:) By the way, as I wrote on friday, No chocolate on saturday: yes that was my goal and I achieved it. I didn't even eat chocolate today, no need to calculate the birthday cake for DBIL :)

Hm, what else can I say? Ye, I miss my mom, my dad and my sibblings and I just want to go home. It's scary being sick abroad. I am afraid to take medicines and maybe in this way Iam just making it worse for myself. But I don't really trust the pharmacies here. Sorry )))

The flu?!

2009-10-11T01:29:00.003+03:00

Ye, I think that's what Iam developing. Unfortunately. I haven't been feeling good all day. I got a headache after breakfast and during the day I got a sore throat. Later in the evening I felt feverish. I have been feeling warm all day but I just thought that was due to the hot weather today. But I actually believe I got fever right now. So here I'm sitting feeling as if on fire. My forehead is pounding and the area around my eyes feels swallen. It's pounding in my ears(usually do that when I got a headache) My head doesn't ache as it usually does, it's more like I feel it's heavy and hard like a stone, from inside. Difficult to explain. But anyway the result of all this is: IAM NOT FEELING VERY WELL!

And tomorrow we are going to the mountains. I'm so not up for it. Especially not with a heavy head and a fever. But I hope it'll all be better until tomorrow..Inshallah.

Nighty night!

Btw I just found a dying mosquito on the bedcover. Thanks!!!!! Maybe I'll get a mosquito free night, since I already got a bite during the day, and one yesterday(on my toe, ewwww)

Two good news gave me a headache

2009-10-10T14:03:00.003+03:00

I slept around 3.30 in the morning, same as yesterday. I had some terrible nightmares and woke up because of them around 7, and with the worst neck ache ever. I've probably been twisting around due to the nightmares and ended up in some weird position. 3 hours after I finally fell asleep the cellphone rang. It was my darling calling with some good news inshallah. Oh I miss him so much. Thanks for MSN and phones:) After our phonecall it was pretty impossible to fall asleep again, but finally I did. Just to be awaken 1 hour after that by harsh knocking on the bedroom door. "You've got a phonecall" Whaaat? I wonder who is calling me. I ask her who it is. She tells me it's from an office. An office??? I get nervous and the urge to get back to sleeps comes over me, but I get out of bed and drag myself out of the room to get to where the phone is. "Allooo!?" I say as a true wannabe arab speaking girl. "Is this *******?" Yes it is, I reply and ignore the fact that he just by adding the letter A to my name made it into a whole other name... Like 10 questions later we hang up. Obviously they are working on my visa. Hamdella w kheir inshallah.

So here Iam all alone at home. With typing that I realize that my plans for today amongst other things, was to play wii. But I've just ate breakfast so I don't want to weigh myself. My habit is always to weigh myself after bathroom visit and before breakfast. That way I think it will be most accurate. Hm, but then I realize that the last time I did a body test was when my husband were here and he n bro in law played wii. That was in the afternoon, and I had even ate dinner at that time. So no worries:)
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I connected the wii and pushed the on-button, logged into my profile and started the bodytest. I did 2 bodytests as usual but they werent the same. So I did a third one which wasn't so very close to any of the first ones so I had to do a 4th one. The 4th one showed almost the same result as the 3rd one. So I guess that's accurate.
All of the 4 tests showed a weight of less than 60kgs. So happy with that:) Who cares about my ugly hairstyle now eh:P Well anyways, I didn't continue with any excercise because of the neck pain and plus I just got a headache aswell. Iam going to take a panadol and rest a bit... Wish you all a nice Saturday!

An ordinary friday

2009-10-10T02:34:00.002+03:00

Woke up, had breakfast: 2 cheese sandwiches and one egg+tea. 2 hours later lunch/dinner: a piece of fish filé and tabbouleh. 2 glasses of mango juice, one banana, 2 twix.
Interesting right?
I suspect my body being out of balance. I think it's because of all the sugar I eat everyday.
Goal for tomorrow: NO CHOCOLATE!

Tomorrow I might play wii, yey, since my parents in law are leaving in the noon and I decided to stay home. I might actually be able to get some alone time in the house:) I don't expect good news about my weight though. I feel fluffy and fat. But it may only be because I haven't excercised in a while. Maybe I still weigh closer to 60 than 65. I sure hope so:)

One day I need to invest in some new trousers. They just don't look as good on me anymore. I have lost 10 kgs since I bought these trousers. I need some new ones:) Well Im not into going shopping, so who knows when Iam going to buy them....

Now: time to go to sleep. Goodnight and have a nice day tomorrow<3

Hairstyle look-alike

2009-10-09T17:08:00.002+03:00

If you are following my blog you know that I got my hair cut off about a week ago. And yes, I still hate it. Why do I hate it? Because it looks like in the picture below.....

(picture borrowed from google.se)

Me the instructor and supervisor

2009-10-09T03:00:00.006+03:00

Yes and 2 sweeties were working for me. I told them what to do and they followed orders and it all turned out DELICIOUS!

Ye, I was in the kitchen today:) Actually I did the sallad all by myself. Tomato, parsley, lettuce, cucumber and some onion. Cut it all into pretty small pieces and add some mayo and lemon juice and move it around to let the juice and mayo marry eachother and smuther all their love on the vegetables. Ye what a lovely dish indeed:P And with this we patted and massaged in salt, cummin, black pepper, and lemon juice on a fish filé that was put in the oven for some heat:) Then my mother in law made some rice n fish dish.

I kept myself to my sallad and fish. Don't like when the dish actually tastes fish. Strange eh? :P
My brother in law sat all through dinner saying: mmmm oooh mmmmmmmmm oooh mmmmm"
I'm not really sure it was mmmm because it was tasty or what it was :P

I loved it anyways:)

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I got a compliment today, not just for the food I mean, but another one. It made me feel shy, but also happy:) It was a compliment straight from the blue and nothing I expected to receive. Thank God for everything and for bringing these people to my life. Or actually bringing me to their life:P

Goodnight, it's 3.10 at night/morning.. zzzzzzzzzzzzz

Update: Thanks sis for the correct spelling of parsley:D

I love this song!

2009-10-09T02:40:00.002+03:00

Evanescence: My immortal

"I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along"

Wasta

2009-10-09T02:12:00.003+03:00

I don't exactly have a word to translate it to. But maybe influence? If you're someone who have some kind of status and can change things. For example if you want to get hired by a specific company it will help knowing someone important in the company. This person, or the relation with that person is called "wasta". If no wasta, you get nowhere. Kind of.. You'll probably get where you're trying to go, but it will take a whole lot of more time to get there. I don't really know what I think about "wasta" yet. I mean it's great, of course, IF you have any. If you don't it's terrible and so unfair. So I guess I dislike it but I'm not the one who won't use it. What a hypocrite eh? Sorry for misspelling but my dictionary is no longer with me:)

People here around tell me you have to use shortcuts or you won't get anywhere. Or more honestly, they say you must cheat and lie or you won't get anything(anything as in any money)... Well I do understand why some people feel that way, but Iam not going to cheat or lie to get my way. And I don't care much about money. I don't need to be rich or have lots of money in my pocket or bank account. I just want enough of it to put food on the table everyday, somewhere to live and somewhere to go if, inshallah not, someone of us needs medical attention.

I strongly believe that being honest and straight forward is the best way to live. It might be difficult at some times, and you might not get what you want. But have faith and trust in God and he will reward you in this life and/or in the hereafter, inshallah. BUT Iam going to surf on the wave of "wasta" for a little bit longer.

Going to the movies tonight

2009-10-07T17:11:00.000+03:00

With dear brother in law.

Is your husband treating you right?

2009-10-06T18:15:00.003+03:00

If yes, dont EVER take it for granted.
Let him ALWAYS know that you don't take him for granted.
Let him know how much his love and actions means to you. Never forget to treat him in the best of ways too.
And express your love for him all the time,
with words AND actions.

Btw this also goes the other way around.
Is your wife treating you right?

Zozo

2009-10-06T17:38:00.002+03:00

You know the movie made my Josef Fares that includes both Lebanese and Swedish environment? Well I've just watched it for the hundredth time. I always think of my old friend from school(now my DH)as Zozo. Hamdella their story isn't exactly the same, but the personalities of Zozo and my dear husband is really similar.

I love the movie and I love you B!

Btw if you didn't see this movie till now go and borrow it. The name is "Zozo" and is about this lebanese boy and his family, the war in Lebanon and how it might be coming to a new country.

Meetings with animals

2009-10-05T23:55:00.003+03:00

Last week I got stung by a bee and we also had an interesting visitor at home. Something that looked to me as a big fat hairy spider crawling on the floor, about 5 cms in diameter. I didn't go near it since they told me it's poisinous and it was killed pretty instantly.

Btw why have I never heard of putting a piece of garlic on the bee sting before? If we had known that it might had helped growing up with hundreds of bees around.

My new diet

2009-10-05T17:44:00.003+03:00

Breakfast: bread+yellow cheese+a cup of tea
Lunch/dinner: 2 slices of Pizza Hut's peperoni pizza+2 glasses of diet Pepsi+chocolate bar

Hey, Pepsi and Pizza Hut await requests for payment of commercial in my blog.

To whoever it was who envied me for my scandinavian fine hair and put a spell on me.

2009-10-05T00:09:00.003+03:00

Thank you so much for making me miserable.

The other day I went to the hairsalon to get the split ends cut off of my hair. Well it ended with a whole new hairstyle. One which I didn't wish for. And my demands wasn't taken into consideration. Damn you! Sorry, Iam just so upset. In 2 months I went from longhaired me to short hair me. I've gotten like 30 cms cut off my hair. You have to understand how upset Iam. Ye I know it's just hair, and you might think Iam silly getting this upset just because of a haircut. But believe me.... It's terrible. Iam so unhappy with it. I wish it would help to go to the hairsalon and fix it. But it can only get shorter and it's already too short... So I have to do the best of it and just hope it won't take long for it to grow out. Which I know it will. My hair grows superslow:(
Blllllllllllllaaaaaaargh!!!!!!!!!!

Dear Friends

2009-09-24T18:34:00.002+03:00

I hope everyone had a nice eid.

I'll be updating soon.

What happened with Mel, Faisal, Khalid, Jude??? And horrible mother in law??? I'm dying to know!!! Well I'll take the time soon to check it:) Ange> Don't erase your blog till I've read it!!!! Hope you get it published. Inshallah.