oktober 28, 2009


I woke up at 5 yey, stayed in bed for another 45 minutes till I finally left the coziness=cozy-ness(is that even a word? LOL) I've had my 'nescafe', and now I'm just relaxing and checking some things on the internet.

People thought I wouldn't be able to wake up in the morning. Hah!!! Did I prove you wrong yet?? Well tiredness wasn't mentioned, just that I wouldn't be able to wake up. :)

I think I better go and put some laundry in the washing machine and maybe do the dishes from this morning and last night? Ye, I saved them from yesterday till today, because I didn't want to waste time standing in the kitchen. Do you blame me?


I want to go shopping LOL. So many things I need to buy and ye some clothes too. Maybe after tomorrow. I guess no need to hope for later today. Too much things to do! It's okey >D

oktober 27, 2009

Hello, I'm back!!!!

Ye, I haven't had the time to blog or read any of your blogs in a while. But now I'm back, but who knows for how long it'll lasts?

I won't be able to be connected all day as before, I have too much to do hamdella. I've missed it. It's the most wonderful feeling I get when I sit down in the afternoon after all work. So satisfying. And beside I don't have the same access to the internet as before. From 24/7 (well except for for the daily 3 hours when we didn't have any electricity) to around 1 hour a day.

I'll try to keep blogging everyday anyway. I can always type the post and later when I get access to the internet publish it :D

So what have you been up to while I was away?

oktober 22, 2009

What did I tell you?

Didn't I tell you yesterday that I'll wake up today as my normal self?
Well thats exactly what happened. And thank God for that because I really needed to be in a good mood, patience and smiling. It was such a long day today. Just hope that our efforts make a difference. Inshallah.

oktober 20, 2009


I know I shouldn't let it get to me. I'm so upset and annoyed. Too much of the same stuff at one day. I'm tired, annoyed, upset, and angry....
But tomorrow is a new day and I hope I'll wake up as my normal self...

oktober 19, 2009


I went to the hospital today, to meet the doctor and get my test results. We arrived at the hospital at 10.50. My appointment with the doctor was at 11, so we were on time ;)
At 11.50 the doctor welcomed us. Finally, after some nagging from dear mother in law :D I just sat down as a good swedish girl, as usual ;) But I guess I better learn how NOT to have patience or I'll end up waiting for 100 hours for my turn... Bad system.

Anyway, the doctor listened to my heart and heard it beating your name :P It was normal and everything seems to be okey, hamdella.
Later the doctor told us to go to the reception in the other building to get the testresults and later go to room 212 to get them validated.

Total time of hospital visit: 120 minutes.
Actual time with the doctor: 10 mnutes

Something about nothing

We went to a birthday party today. It was pretty fun, I acted as a photographer and spent most of the party taking pictures. Smart move :D

Later we went and ate at chopstick. It was delish, but not as delicious as it use to be. I don't know if that was because of the restaurant or because my husband wasn't with us. Food does taste better when he is around and places looks more beautiful and live just goes on so smoothly:D

Iam going to the doctor tomorrow to get the test results, wish me good luck.

oktober 17, 2009


So before yesterday, I went to the doctor. And you know what? My arm is still in its normal color. I just got a small spot from where he put the needle. Last time I gave blood for a test I got a big ugly bruice.

They were friendly and professional at the hospital. They had lots of patience because I actually was kind of annoying. Not by meaning though, but I just want to get it right:)

I'm feeling better today, I think Iam 100% well now, but Iam just feeling tired and I just took a nap of 3 hours today... Hm....

oktober 16, 2009

I ate my way throu this day

Since I didn't have breakfast till around 11-11.30, except for some juice and chocolate, I had to make up for it somehow. For lunch I ate 2 portions of lubiye and rice(my kind of portions okey!) ½ pomegranate. For snack I ate 2 mini bananas equal to one:D For late late snack I ate one avocado and one apple. One after eachother of course. And now I'm drinking some more juice. I need to regain some power that I've lost during my sick days. I'm trying to build up my body so it won't get sick like this another time. I HATE being sick. I'm so not used to being totally knocked out and not being able to do anything. Not even able to smile:( I have been so tired. I'm still not 100% back to 'me'. But pretty close. But I won't rush anything, going to fast may kick me back where I've just been----->totally down under suffering from the flu. Don't want to go there again. To get the flu once a year or even 2 is acceptable, but not three times. I've already have the flu twice this year, so I guess I'm safe now? Inshallah.

Ye, I still have headache...


oktober 15, 2009

Feeling great! Hungry, thirsty and with a twist of headache

Great start of the day don't you think? :P

I'm sitting here fully dressed to go out and full make up and I fixed my hair. Or well at least I combed it ;) Iam waiting for my mother in law, she is taking me to the doctor for a check up. I'm nervous for it because it's only my second time to go to the doc's here. And the reason I'm hungry and is because I haven't eaten for 14 hours. And ye I think the headache will disappear if I could just have something to drink. But I have to do the check up on an empty stomach. SO, I hope she comes home soon so we can go..

Other than that, I'm feeling better today. I slept last night at 12 and woke up 5.20. So at least 5 hours of continuous sleep:) Oh that's reminds me. Things that interrupts my sleep. Sometimes I forget that there is actually humans living here. All you hear are cars' related sounds. Actually the cars' honk. Is it honk? I'm not sure. But anyway, the people here use it to communicate. But all they wanna say anyway is: Get the hell out of my way!. I'm so tired of the sound!!!!!!! I hate it! All you people who communicate by throwing yourself on the car honk: Take a breath, have patience and whatever you do, DOOOOONT KEEP HONKING!!!!" Honking should be illegal. Hah, as if someone here around follow such laws anyways....*sigh*

oktober 14, 2009


NOOOO I didn't wake up just now :D
I actually woke up at 8.30 but stayed in bed till 9 something :D
I was able to close laptop and lamps etc last night at 23.50 actually. I fell asleep almost immediately, but I woke up 40 minutes later of an itch in my throat. It took me about 2 hours to fall asleep again :S

So now it's about 4 oclock in the afternoon, I hope the evening comes soon because I'm sleepy...

My day so far:
Breakfast, 2 cheese sandwiches, tea, half 'granatäpple'
20 minutes after breakfast I took 1 panadol.
stomach ache after that....
took vitamins
puzzled for 2 hours
fixed some important things online
had lunch with parents-in-law
took shower
now relaxing a bit, surfing the net and listening to music

Iam doing my best not to fall asleep. If I sleep now I don't believe I'll wake up till around 8. And then I most definetely won't be able to fall asleep anytime before 12 midnight.

Maybe I'll have chocolate croissants for evening snack. Dear mother in law bought some for me in the morning. She got upset when she came home at 10 and found me already awake and with a huge breakfast already in my stomach, hehe. Just hope I get to put my hands on them before someone else does LOL. It's really like living at home with MY parents again with my sibblings. No way for 'saving things for later'. Eat it now or lose it. Hehe.

oktober 13, 2009


I ate, I took 2 panadol and here's the stomachache as a letter in the mail. Aotch.. I still do believe the stomachache is because of the panadol.

Anyways, you know what? Iam going to close everything and force myself to sleep. From now on Iam going to try to go to sleep at 12. Wish me good luck. I'm not so sure it going to work succesfully, but Iam going to try. So goodnight everyone!

Goodmorning y'all

Okey it's almost evening now. Late afternoon. But if you don't sleep until 4 in the morning it's pretty noonish don't you think? At 4 that's when I fell asleep.... *sigh*

So today I'll only take one Cal-C-Vita since it contains caffeine, or was that the panadol? Well anyway Iam feeling much better today hamdella. I didn't even take any panadol today. My throat is still swallen but only on one of the sides) Hamdella.

New discoveries (for me) that I want to share with you:
If you get a bee sting, put a garlic piece on it, the juice helps a lot
If you have a sore throat gurgle several times a day with pure lemon juice

That's all for now:) I think Iam going to take a nap. I'm sleepy

I didn't sleep yet

I closed the laptop, the lamps everything. I tried for a whole hour but just couldn't relax and sleep. I keep yawning but Iam feeling like dancing. Too much energy to sleep. How that is possible is a mystery to me. To have so much energy but still feel sleepier than ever.......

*update* great, now I got stomachache aswell..........maybe bec of the meds? even though I haven't taken any on an empty stomach?

My fears

It's 2.15 at night. I'm afraid to go to sleep. For time being it feels okey to swallow liquids, still some pain, but okey. I don't have a headache anymore, just feeling feverish. But I fear that I'll wake up tomorrow and feeling as if I have 2 tennisballs in my throat and a bowling ball as my head...............

oktober 12, 2009

I think I might have tonsillitis

"Symptoms of tonsillitis include a severe sore throat (which may be experienced as referred pain to the ears), painful/difficult swallowing, coughing, headache, myalgia (muscle aches), fever and chills. Tonsillitis is characterized by signs of red, swollen tonsils which may have a purulent exudative coating of white patches (i.e. pus). Swelling of the cheeks and neck may occur...."


So why do I think I might have it? Well because I have:
a severe sore throat
painful AND difficult swallowing
red, swollen tonsils+white spots
swelling of neck...

Please, say it isn't so?


Okey thank God for more sleeping hours last night:) And the lack of fever. I felt feverish till around 2 oclock at night then I slept and woke up around 6 I think. Of course I slept again :)

Finally at 12 today I said goodbye to the bed and left it all alone. I struggled with the breakfast(didn't know swallowing could give so much suffering) afterwards I took 2 panadol, 1 calcevita(vitamins and caffeine hmmm) and gave my throat a sterilisation(?) with lemon juice.

I sure hope I won't be forced to go to the doctor. I don't want to take anymore meds... !!!!!!!!!

Feeling worse today

I didn't get much sleep last night. Maybe alltogether 2 hours. But I slept twice during the day instead. I just couldn't keep myself awake. Could hardly even stand on my two feet. Sooo weak. And I couldn't eat much either. Well later during the day I felt a little bit better, but the fever is back now even though I took 2 panadol 2 hours ago :(

Angepange: you're not updating why oh why?? I want to know what's happening with Jude, Faisal and Khalid!!!! So exciting :)

When I'll be rich (:p) I'll go and buy some books :) Iam so "thirsty" for sitting down with some candy or chocolate and read a good book from the beginning to the end, all after eachother. I believe that's how a book should be read:) By the way, as I wrote on friday, No chocolate on saturday: yes that was my goal and I achieved it. I didn't even eat chocolate today, no need to calculate the birthday cake for DBIL :)

Hm, what else can I say? Ye, I miss my mom, my dad and my sibblings and I just want to go home. It's scary being sick abroad. I am afraid to take medicines and maybe in this way Iam just making it worse for myself. But I don't really trust the pharmacies here. Sorry )))

oktober 11, 2009

The flu?!

Ye, I think that's what Iam developing. Unfortunately. I haven't been feeling good all day. I got a headache after breakfast and during the day I got a sore throat. Later in the evening I felt feverish. I have been feeling warm all day but I just thought that was due to the hot weather today. But I actually believe I got fever right now. So here I'm sitting feeling as if on fire. My forehead is pounding and the area around my eyes feels swallen. It's pounding in my ears(usually do that when I got a headache) My head doesn't ache as it usually does, it's more like I feel it's heavy and hard like a stone, from inside. Difficult to explain. But anyway the result of all this is: IAM NOT FEELING VERY WELL!

And tomorrow we are going to the mountains. I'm so not up for it. Especially not with a heavy head and a fever. But I hope it'll all be better until tomorrow..Inshallah.

Nighty night!

Btw I just found a dying mosquito on the bedcover. Thanks!!!!! Maybe I'll get a mosquito free night, since I already got a bite during the day, and one yesterday(on my toe, ewwww)

oktober 10, 2009

Two good news gave me a headache

I slept around 3.30 in the morning, same as yesterday. I had some terrible nightmares and woke up because of them around 7, and with the worst neck ache ever. I've probably been twisting around due to the nightmares and ended up in some weird position. 3 hours after I finally fell asleep the cellphone rang. It was my darling calling with some good news inshallah. Oh I miss him so much. Thanks for MSN and phones:) After our phonecall it was pretty impossible to fall asleep again, but finally I did. Just to be awaken 1 hour after that by harsh knocking on the bedroom door. "You've got a phonecall" Whaaat? I wonder who is calling me. I ask her who it is. She tells me it's from an office. An office??? I get nervous and the urge to get back to sleeps comes over me, but I get out of bed and drag myself out of the room to get to where the phone is. "Allooo!?" I say as a true wannabe arab speaking girl. "Is this *******?" Yes it is, I reply and ignore the fact that he just by adding the letter A to my name made it into a whole other name... Like 10 questions later we hang up. Obviously they are working on my visa. Hamdella w kheir inshallah.

So here Iam all alone at home. With typing that I realize that my plans for today amongst other things, was to play wii. But I've just ate breakfast so I don't want to weigh myself. My habit is always to weigh myself after bathroom visit and before breakfast. That way I think it will be most accurate. Hm, but then I realize that the last time I did a body test was when my husband were here and he n bro in law played wii. That was in the afternoon, and I had even ate dinner at that time. So no worries:)
I connected the wii and pushed the on-button, logged into my profile and started the bodytest. I did 2 bodytests as usual but they werent the same. So I did a third one which wasn't so very close to any of the first ones so I had to do a 4th one. The 4th one showed almost the same result as the 3rd one. So I guess that's accurate.
All of the 4 tests showed a weight of less than 60kgs. So happy with that:) Who cares about my ugly hairstyle now eh:P Well anyways, I didn't continue with any excercise because of the neck pain and plus I just got a headache aswell. Iam going to take a panadol and rest a bit... Wish you all a nice Saturday!

An ordinary friday

Woke up, had breakfast: 2 cheese sandwiches and one egg+tea. 2 hours later lunch/dinner: a piece of fish filé and tabbouleh. 2 glasses of mango juice, one banana, 2 twix.
Interesting right?
I suspect my body being out of balance. I think it's because of all the sugar I eat everyday.
Goal for tomorrow: NO CHOCOLATE!

Tomorrow I might play wii, yey, since my parents in law are leaving in the noon and I decided to stay home. I might actually be able to get some alone time in the house:) I don't expect good news about my weight though. I feel fluffy and fat. But it may only be because I haven't excercised in a while. Maybe I still weigh closer to 60 than 65. I sure hope so:)

One day I need to invest in some new trousers. They just don't look as good on me anymore. I have lost 10 kgs since I bought these trousers. I need some new ones:) Well Im not into going shopping, so who knows when Iam going to buy them....

Now: time to go to sleep. Goodnight and have a nice day tomorrow<3

oktober 09, 2009

Hairstyle look-alike

If you are following my blog you know that I got my hair cut off about a week ago. And yes, I still hate it. Why do I hate it? Because it looks like in the picture below.....

(picture borrowed from google.se)

Me the instructor and supervisor

Yes and 2 sweeties were working for me. I told them what to do and they followed orders and it all turned out DELICIOUS!

Ye, I was in the kitchen today:) Actually I did the sallad all by myself. Tomato, parsley, lettuce, cucumber and some onion. Cut it all into pretty small pieces and add some mayo and lemon juice and move it around to let the juice and mayo marry eachother and smuther all their love on the vegetables. Ye what a lovely dish indeed:P And with this we patted and massaged in salt, cummin, black pepper, and lemon juice on a fish filé that was put in the oven for some heat:) Then my mother in law made some rice n fish dish.

I kept myself to my sallad and fish. Don't like when the dish actually tastes fish. Strange eh? :P
My brother in law sat all through dinner saying: mmmm oooh mmmmmmmmm oooh mmmmm"
I'm not really sure it was mmmm because it was tasty or what it was :P

I loved it anyways:)

I got a compliment today, not just for the food I mean, but another one. It made me feel shy, but also happy:) It was a compliment straight from the blue and nothing I expected to receive. Thank God for everything and for bringing these people to my life. Or actually bringing me to their life:P

Goodnight, it's 3.10 at night/morning.. zzzzzzzzzzzzz

Update: Thanks sis for the correct spelling of parsley:D

I love this song!

Evanescence: My immortal

"I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along"


I don't exactly have a word to translate it to. But maybe influence? If you're someone who have some kind of status and can change things. For example if you want to get hired by a specific company it will help knowing someone important in the company. This person, or the relation with that person is called "wasta". If no wasta, you get nowhere. Kind of.. You'll probably get where you're trying to go, but it will take a whole lot of more time to get there. I don't really know what I think about "wasta" yet. I mean it's great, of course, IF you have any. If you don't it's terrible and so unfair. So I guess I dislike it but I'm not the one who won't use it. What a hypocrite eh? Sorry for misspelling but my dictionary is no longer with me:)

People here around tell me you have to use shortcuts or you won't get anywhere. Or more honestly, they say you must cheat and lie or you won't get anything(anything as in any money)... Well I do understand why some people feel that way, but Iam not going to cheat or lie to get my way. And I don't care much about money. I don't need to be rich or have lots of money in my pocket or bank account. I just want enough of it to put food on the table everyday, somewhere to live and somewhere to go if, inshallah not, someone of us needs medical attention.

I strongly believe that being honest and straight forward is the best way to live. It might be difficult at some times, and you might not get what you want. But have faith and trust in God and he will reward you in this life and/or in the hereafter, inshallah. BUT Iam going to surf on the wave of "wasta" for a little bit longer.

oktober 07, 2009

Going to the movies tonight

With dear brother in law.

oktober 06, 2009

Is your husband treating you right?

If yes, dont EVER take it for granted.
Let him ALWAYS know that you don't take him for granted.
Let him know how much his love and actions means to you. Never forget to treat him in the best of ways too.
And express your love for him all the time,
with words AND actions.

Btw this also goes the other way around.
Is your wife treating you right?


You know the movie made my Josef Fares that includes both Lebanese and Swedish environment? Well I've just watched it for the hundredth time. I always think of my old friend from school(now my DH)as Zozo. Hamdella their story isn't exactly the same, but the personalities of Zozo and my dear husband is really similar.

I love the movie and I love you B!

Btw if you didn't see this movie till now go and borrow it. The name is "Zozo" and is about this lebanese boy and his family, the war in Lebanon and how it might be coming to a new country.

oktober 05, 2009

Meetings with animals

Last week I got stung by a bee and we also had an interesting visitor at home. Something that looked to me as a big fat hairy spider crawling on the floor, about 5 cms in diameter. I didn't go near it since they told me it's poisinous and it was killed pretty instantly.

Btw why have I never heard of putting a piece of garlic on the bee sting before? If we had known that it might had helped growing up with hundreds of bees around.

My new diet

Breakfast: bread+yellow cheese+a cup of tea
Lunch/dinner: 2 slices of Pizza Hut's peperoni pizza+2 glasses of diet Pepsi+chocolate bar

Hey, Pepsi and Pizza Hut await requests for payment of commercial in my blog.

To whoever it was who envied me for my scandinavian fine hair and put a spell on me.

Thank you so much for making me miserable.

The other day I went to the hairsalon to get the split ends cut off of my hair. Well it ended with a whole new hairstyle. One which I didn't wish for. And my demands wasn't taken into consideration. Damn you! Sorry, Iam just so upset. In 2 months I went from longhaired me to short hair me. I've gotten like 30 cms cut off my hair. You have to understand how upset Iam. Ye I know it's just hair, and you might think Iam silly getting this upset just because of a haircut. But believe me.... It's terrible. Iam so unhappy with it. I wish it would help to go to the hairsalon and fix it. But it can only get shorter and it's already too short... So I have to do the best of it and just hope it won't take long for it to grow out. Which I know it will. My hair grows superslow:(