september 24, 2009

Dear Friends

I hope everyone had a nice eid.

I'll be updating soon.

What happened with Mel, Faisal, Khalid, Jude??? And horrible mother in law??? I'm dying to know!!! Well I'll take the time soon to check it:) Ange> Don't erase your blog till I've read it!!!! Hope you get it published. Inshallah.

september 17, 2009

"I´m so excited...."

"and I just can't hide it...."

Today when I woke up and greeted the parents in law, they saw my silly smile and commented it. LOL. Well what to say.....
Forgive me for being excited?
Forgive me for being happy?
Forgive me for not hiding it very well?
Or I think the most appropiate would be:

Forgive me for my lower mood the past 2 months!

Well Iam missing you and it's difficult being without you.
Nothing is motivating me.
I need you!

Like a thief in the night

I'm moving slowly and as quiet as I possibly can. Everyone are sleeping and I am going to the kitchen, to the bedroom, to the toilet, to the bedroom, to the kitchen again and then back to the bedroom.. Oooouf, and each time I open the bedroom door it makes such an annoying sound. I feel so bad! I think Iam disturbing everyone's sleep. They say they don't notice. Or at least till yesterday... Dear mother in law informed me that she woke up at 5 when I went to the bathroom and that she couldn't fall asleep again after that:S But what can I do? I have to go to the bathroom. I can't stay all night without 1 or 2 visits. Especially now during Ramadan and all the liquid intake is done in the evening:S

I've just fixed my eyebrows and scrubbed my face with a leefeh (spelling?) and it feels so smoooth:) And I smell vanilla:) Have you tried Fa's bodywash? Vanilla yoghurt and honey? You'll smell nice and your skin will feel soooo smooth:)

Oh, too much of nothing. Goodnight. Again. Or actually goodmorning

27th of Ramadan

Yesterday we went to a restaurant for iftar. I wasn't in the mood at all and didn't want to go. But dear mother in law insisted so I went anyway. I got 30 minutes to get ready. That was more than enough. Ye, well I don't need much time to get ready since Iam already beautiful. You know Iam joking right? Kinda:P

(We should all think of ourselves as beautiful and don't be like in my homecountry where it's almost "bad manners" to be proud of who you are or how you look like. Of course it shouldn't get out of hand, but we should feel good about ourselves, it's really important. Well moving on. )

So after finally finding a place to park the car, we had to walk for like 10 minutes. And poor me, I was wearing heals!!! Aotch my feet. I sooooo wanted to get in and sit down asap. When we finally did find our seats and relaxed for a while suddenly everyone starts clapping and standing up. What's going on what's going on I thought to myself. Who is coming??
Well the one and only Saad Hariri! Iam not so easily impressed of either presidents or other celebrities, but if I'd say that I didn't feel glad he was there I would be lying. Why was I happy to see him there? Well because I know lots of other people would've LOVED to be there. So I have to enjoy it for them who weren't. Right?

He spoke for about 15 minutes or maybe more:) I didn't understand everything he said, but he talked a lot about the lebanese peoples dream about Lebanon. Lebanon as it used to be, or how it should be. Calm and peaceful. And for it to be the country all people want to come to and enjoy their vacation and so on. The country that has electricity, water, schools etc working PROPERLY. He also spoke about the palestinians. How we mustn't forget about them. And let them always know that we are supporting them as our brothers and sisters. Mr. Hariri said much more things but I didn't have anyone to translate for me so what I mentioned is the things that I understood and felt the urge to write about.

Wish you all a nice day even if you don't meet any presidents:P

My suhoor today: 1 bounty, 1 muffin and one glass of Pepsi. Superhealthy............

september 16, 2009

26th of Ramadan

Say whaaaat!?!?!?!?! 26 days of Ramadan has soon passed by. I must admit that I haven't succeeded reaching my goals. But I have still some days left. But I have almost 30% left of the message of the Holy Quran... How am I going to finish that in 3-4 days? Hmmmm.... If I don't succeed, it will be the FIRST Ramadan since 2000(that's the year I became a muslim officially) that I didn't read the whole Quran.... Sad:( I'll try to make it. It's not over till it's over, right?

Yesterday we ate lahm biajin(or however its spelled) it means basically: meat in dough. It's tasty:) I ate one, and a half a plate of sallad. And 2 dates, and a bowl of lental soup. Or I guess it was beans...Anyway. Yesterday I had pea soup. It was supertasty. It reminded me of Sweden:) Actually we were also served fish and bbq chicken pieces. But I ate dates, soup, sallad and one lahm biajin. Not a lot. But enough:) I was asked if I wanted Pepsi. I said no thanks, later. Planning on drinking a glass of it with my suhoor. Since I know that I'd be eating a snickers. Chocolate and the black poisined water is so tasty together:) But I've already ate suhoor, and I forgot to put Pepsi. Well I guess that's for the better. Since I ate also a doughnut for suhoor.. Hmmm. So 2 doughnouts for me. No more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't want to gain weight again:)

On saturday we are invited to a restaurant for iftar. I guess it will be the last day of fasting. Or maybe Sunday, anyway, Iam looking forward to it and I hope they serve tasty food. The restaurant is near "our" mountain house, so I'll be wearing a jacket, trousers, long sleeve blouse and socks and hopefully a "blanket" too:)

Mmmmm....Yesterday I helped my brother in law with the puzzle and ye I actually helped. Helped as in connected like 50 pieces:) Just about 2900 left... Oooouf!!!!
Now it's 4 oclock here and Iam bored, no one has updated their blog... Iam searching for new blogs but not finding any interesting, do you know of one? The morning pray isn't till 5 oclock. That's another hour.. Must....Not.....Fall.....A.....S....L...E...E...P..........................................

september 15, 2009

25th of Ramadan

I've just had a cheese sandwich. Dry dry dry dry since Iam not putting butter or jam. Only cheese and the bread. Mmmm I'd like to put some nutella... Mmmm but that will be SOOOO unhealthy and I'll be eating the rest of the nutella remaining in the jar in one day. Is there anything tastier than nutella? And it fits with everything. Especially chips. Ye I know, but don't say it isn't tasty until you try it.

Today I don't know where we are going to eat. I heard something about eating outside but I hope we are going to eat at home. Iam not in the mood to go out again and just hoping the food that will be served will be tasty. At home at least I can have some input:)

Now Iam going to continue reading your blogs, which I hope some of you updated since I checked last time, then Iam going to pray fajr and sleeeeeeep. Iam not sleepy yet, but I do wish to have sleeping hours as a normal person....

24th of Ramadan

Today we went on an event for iftar. The place where it was held was a ballroom and the decoration was amazing. If my wedding were to be held indoors I'd love for it to be there. So classy, so romantic so beautiful. But I've already had my wedding and it was perfect!! So moving on:)

The food was really great. Mezze was served, you know those small dishes of everything you can imagine. They served 3 main meals, one was with fish, another with chicken, and the last one was sheep and moghrabiyeh. Of course I ate the one with chicken. But without chicken. Don't ask me why. As soon as it ended me and my brother in law left. He invited me for ice-cream. That was sweet of him, as sweet as the icecream:) I chosed dark chocolate+strawberry icecream with chocolate chips and gummybears. Ye they mix it in the icecream:) It was tasty, but I advise you NOT to put gummybears in the ice cream because when they get cold, they are so hard to chew. I wish I chosed Kitkat crunches instead:)

When we came home, me and brother in law sat down and tried to connect some pieces of the puzzle. I succeeded with 7 pieces...Oooouf it's so difficult now in the beginning.

Life is passing by and not much is happening. Still standing and stamping in the same place. Kinda....

Just a reflection: doesn't people know that it's bad to smoke ciggarettes? Doesn't people care how it looks when they are wearing a veil holding and sucking on a ciggarette? It just looks soooo wrong!!!! As if a halfnaked woman would be walking around with a Quran in her hand..I hate ciggarette smoke, and think it is very selfish of people to force us non-smokers to be passive smokers. SELFISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why isn't it prohibited to smoke in-doors? Oh well it's Lebanon, what do I expect? It's not their fault that they got a million more important stuff to think about and to rule about then a silly law against smoking in public spaces.....

september 14, 2009

Very important information!

It's raining again!!!!!!!

Oh I want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Marabou chocolate
Vanilla sugar/powder
Zoega's coffee
Chocolate bars with pieces of liquorice in it
Liqourice tablets in a small box(I forgot the name)

OOoooOOOooOooOooOooOooOh I so wanna go to Sweden and fill a whole suitcase with the above mentioned things......... AND to see my family:)

If you have any of the following symptoms-move to Lebanon!

*Dry skin
Okey that's all :P

I've noticed since I came that I do no longer need to use bodylotion. Before I was using it on a daily basis, several times a day. Iam now using those hard pieces of soap. I haven't been able to use them for like 20 years. Iam using them everyday now and I don't even need to use handlotion afterwards. I'm amazed:)

Today we had a small barbeque action going on. Chicken filé pieces and kafta. I ate kafta, sallad(t) and some homemade fries. And dates. Mmmm I have to break my fast with dates. It's the thing I look forward to much during the day. Dates! And water. And ye soup aswell:)

Well now Iam going to watch TV for a while more and make myself a sandwich and drink some cool mango juice before I go to sleep. I think we are going to get morning visitors tomorrow. Oh well they come in the morning but stay till the evening:) But Iam not really sleepy now, no wonder, I woke up at 5 in the evening.......I slept for 12 hours! I do feel a little energized, yey:)

september 13, 2009

23th of Ramadan

Yey, so many of you have updated your blogs. Iam very very pleased:)
Iam back in Beirut. That's all. For now.

september 11, 2009

21st of Ramadan

It's almost 4 oclock over here. It's quiet outside. Actually it's quiet in the whole house. Not a sound can be heard. Or... The only 2 things are me tapping on the keyboard and the AC in my room.

Yesterday my parents in law were here. We ate wonderful tasty stuffed zucchinis/minisquash. I love them!!!! I could eat them everyday. But then again, I wouldn't be able to eat them for years afterwards. I mean you get tired of eating the same thing day after day after a while;)

I just ate a small sandwich with turkey and I filled a bottle with cold water. I have to check how much water Iam drinking a day. Before I had such control and knew exactly how much I was drinking a day. But now when Iam fasting, it's so hard to keep track of that, besides I don't have much time to drink as I use to or as much as I should.

Tomorrow, well actually it's today))) I'll be helping my brother in law with the puzzle he bought, inshallah. He is funny, he bought a puzzle of 3000 pieces. A puzzle with a motive with only one color. Kind of. It's so difficult!!!! Oh well, it'll be nice spending some time with him. Even if we aren't speaking a lot to eachother we really feel close. It's pretty funny that I have a better/closer relation with my brother in law than with my sister in law. It's interesting how I always get a better contact with persons of the opposite sex. It has been that way for as long as I can remember. Being friends with a girl always involved competing some how. In beauty or whatever. Except for with my best friend. We just clicked. Slowly but firmly:) I love you J!

Later today we'll be going up to the mountain and won't be home till Sunday evening inshallah.
We will be breaking the fast with my husband's uncle+wife, husband's cousin+husband+kids, sister in law and her family aswell. Waw, almost the whole family:P It's going to be nice. I just wish my husband was going to be with us....

september 10, 2009

20th of Ramadan

Iam so tired, my body just feels as some cloth on a hanger..Floating here and floating there.
Iam being told to sleep at night and not during the day. Ye well, they might be right. But I have tried that before and I still remain so tired...
Just 10 more days and I'll be sleeping at night inshallah.
Now my dear mother in law is fixing in the kitchen..I gonna go and ask if she needs help. Maybe she accepts...
Soon it's time to break the fast. I can't want. My brother in law brought us cake!!! Yey:P

september 09, 2009

I just don't fit in! And I don't care!!!

I dislike going to the hairdresser here. They ask me if I want some volume. "No, thanks, it's fine like this. Or I'll fix it by myself at home" (I know how they fix volume here, 1 m high and with half of my hair fallen off). But last time I let him fix it anyways since I was going to an event.

And, did he pull for his life? Yes!
Did it feel as if my sculp were going to be pulled off? YES!
Could I brush my hair the next day? NO!!!!!!!!!!!!

Iam just going to NOT try to fit in. My hair is straight, soft, smooth, fine(as in thin) and it's not normal with volume in this kind of hair. Leave my scandinavian hair alone!

I want you to be here!

And if you'd bring earplugs with you that would be even greater.
I miss you

I should feel ashamed of myself!

And yes I do.
My sleeping habits have just been crazy for the last couple of years. And I have been so tired for so long I can't even remember when it started. But it's at least 10 years ago. I think more likely 15 than 10 actually...
Nowadays Iam going to bed around 5 in the morning and stay asleep till 2 oclock in the afternoon. That's just so wrong! But it feels so good to eat suhoor and pray fajr before I go to sleep.....
The bad thing is that the whole world (including my in-laws)and outside my window wakes up at 7-8 in the morning. And usually the sounds wakes me up. So that gives me 2 hours of continuous sleep. ONLY! That's not good. Maybe a reason for me being so tired? Well.... I don't like it. I want to go to bed at 22-22.30 and sleep till 7 or so in the morning and just feel so good and energized during the rest of the day. Will that ever happen?

The strength of a man

The strength of a man isn't seen in the width of his shoulders.
It is seen in the width of his arms that encircle you.

The strength of a man isn't in the deep tone of his voice.
It is in the gentle words he whispers.

The strength of a man isn't how many buddies he has.
It is how good a buddy he is with his kids.

The strength of a man isn't in how respected he is at work.
It is in how respected he is at home.

The strength of a man isn't in how hard he hits.
It is in how tender he touches.

The strength of a man isn't how many women he's Loved by.
It is in can he be true to one woman.

The strength of a man isn't in the weight he can lift.

It is in the burdens he can understand and overcome.

(poem by Jacqueline M Griffith)
found here

19th of Ramadan

Again Iam sitting here...With the poisoined water..Ye that's coke. Or actually Iam drinking Pepsi. Or actually I've just emptied the glass. It wasn't even tasty, but yet I had to drink it all up. I also had a Kitkat. Well you have to have Coke or Pepsi when you eat Kitkat. And also when you eat snickers or chips or peanuts.

I was thinking about maids earlier today. I don't feel comfortable with a maid. I don't know why exactly, maybe because Iam not grown up with one? Or just because it feels strange having a person outside of the family living with us? Well if one day I need a maid and can afford one, I'd still want my children to do some things by themselves. I don't want my children to grow up and get everything served and done for them. They should be able to put their laundry clothes in the laundry bin, leave the bathroom as it was before they took a shower etc. Small things, easy things that doesn't even take any time. I don't want my children to grow up and not being able to do anything except eating, drinking and sleeping. What if they grow up all their life being spoiled doing nothing at home, when they'll move out they are going to expect their partner to do everything for them. Unless they get a maid too. I don't want spoiled bratty children...
I am not saying that people who have a maid are spoiled or to stupid to put their laundry in the laundry bin..But some people who grow up getting pampered this way get the wrong idea about life. (It's not only about maids, some children get so pampered by their parents too)And when they get married they just going to expect their partner to spoil them the same way. Turn their partners into their maid...

For God's sake, my mom put up a sign on the door in our home that said: "Your mom doesn't work here, clean up your mess!"
We laughed and made jokes about it, but we knew it was true. We had to take responsibility for the household aswell. And we turned out okey.

It's raining!!!

Yey, it's raining here for like the first time in 2 months. I don't even know when it rained before I arrived. It's wonderful. I hope it's going to smell rain everywhere tomorrow. You know that fresh smell that only comes after it has been raining? I doubt it's going to be the same here as in Sweden. But rain is so refreshing. I hope it rains all night.

20 minutes later and it is still raining. It doesn't smell refreshing just yet. It smells dust and dirt. Pretty much as when you're picking potatoes from the field...

september 08, 2009

I hope I'll never:

tatto my eyebrows
do any kind of surgery for vanity reasons
care about having the latest model of car, cellphone, laptop, clothes etc
measure people's worth according to race, color or beliefs

you may wonder why Iam writing this... Well it's because these are some things that Iam seeing now during my "new" life. Things that I sooo don't agree with. I am not naive enough to believe that the environment doesn't effect us. So Iam just hoping that in these issues and some others I'll stay the same..

******Always remember*****

Always remember that every person you meet thru your life, they also meet you. And whatever impact you've made on them, they may remember it all their life. If it was a bad impact they may suffer from it everyday for the rest of their lives. If it was a good impact they will remember it too.

Remember that what happens to us thru our lives shapes us. Bad or good. What happened in our lives made us who we are. But only we ourselves are the ones who can decide HOW we should let ourselves be shaped. Should we make our experience our weakness or our strenght? This decision will also be based on how we were raised, and more importantly on who we are deep down inside.

I don't believe that all of us IF we had the exact same upbringing, experiences and people around us that we would end up having the same personality and character. Eventhough this is an experiment impossible to go through, Iam pretty sure Iam accurate.

God made us, he gave us strenght and weakness. It's up to us how we are going to use them.

Be nice to the people you meet. Everyday. Even just smiling at someone in the street may be a huge thing for that person.

Think of who you are and what you are doing and who you want to be.

Display yourself in the way that show's ur real true self. I believe that everyone are good deep inside. I might be naive, but I don't care.

I believe that every person have a good heart, at least to begin with....

So PLEASE, think of who you are and how you treat people.

If you think your children and grandchildren one day deserve to have nice good people around them, think of how you are treating the people living today. Because they are the ones raising your future childrens schoolmates, friends etc.

Also remember: It's never too late to make a change!

Think before you act that's all I got to say!

18th of Ramadan

Lovely days are ahead. Iam feeling them getting closer!

So here Iam, as usual, especially during Ramadan-eating. Very healthy. NOT! Bounty and muffin... Hm. I guess I am putting on the weight I've lost since I came. Hope not. Better check wii some day soon:P

Nah, I don't have anyting to say today.. Iam just waiting for someone to update their blogs, but nothing is happening:(

Today we are going to eat at home in Beirut:) And I guess there going to be a small invasion of kids coming here after about 4 hours. Wihoooo, not. I need my beauty sleep:P

september 07, 2009

Cake anyone?

After bad service at the hotel where we had 'iftar' we dropped half of our group off at home and we went to a new opened café. This is what I ate:)

I promise you...It was not worth it. It looks tastier than it was.

Life is made of waiting

What are we waiting for? The whole life we are just waiting for the next thing.
Just don't forget to live while you wait because suddenly it all going to be over and we are going to be judged and send to where we belong. Allah knows best.

Yes, Iam waiting too...Iam waiting this minute for my brother in law to get ready so we all can go out for iftar. I wish my husband was coming with us. I miss him so much. Unfortunately he is in another country. Well, I know why he is there, and that makes me a little stronger. Mashallah aleih. W alhamdulilah.

Yes, it's still me!

Iam just changing a little bit on my blog. Hope you don't mind:)

17th of Ramadan

Can you believe it? Days has been flying away. So fast! Subhanallah. I hope the following week will fly pass us aswell. Just inshallah we solve some things along the way.
Now it's time for me to go to sleep. With a smile on my lips. Yes that's right. A smile!

Goodnigh/goodmorning everyone!

So ye...I'm back!

It's in the middle of the night and I have no idea of why Im still awake. Since Iam not fasting I don't need to stay awake for the morning pray or to eat something before that. But here Iam. Wide awake. Iam even planning on leaving the bedroom and go watch TV for a moment. All the good movies starts at night. Don't know why, but it's true.
Well I guess a good reason for me not being sleepy just yet is
1. I slept 9 hours last night/morning
2. I took a one hour nap around 5

Well those are the days of my life. Oh I miss the serie "Days of our lives". What happened to what's her name and what's his name? And to their friend's? Did they break up or did they patch up their relationship? And what about Grey's Anatomy? Last episode I watched was when Meredith and Dr Dreamy was getting married... Hm well.. Maybe one day I'll get the seasons on DVD:) I'd also like to watch all the episodes and seasons of "Friends". Ye I haven't actually watched them all. My brother does actually own all of the seasons. But he is far far far away from me... I miss my family.

september 04, 2009

Bone marrow

What a strange name chosen for a hair conditioner don't u think?

"Bone marrow is the flexible tissue found in the hollow interior of bones. In adults, marrow in large bones produces new blood cells" Wikipedia

Wii owii

I played wii today. Mostly just to check my weight. It's been a week ago since I played. I remembered to check the settings of my profile today. I noticed that my lenght has been saved as 2 cms shorter than Iam. That gives me a higher BMI. So I fixed it now and my BMI is around 22.3 instead of 22.8:D But my weight is pretty much the same. Between 60 and 61. Since the body test gives me different results from each test I decided to use the 3 that were closest to eachother and those gave me a BMI of 22.30-22.33. I also got it to be at 22.15. But I guess that's not accurate:) Unfortunately;) Maybe next week.

Iam not feeling too well today so I only played for 20 minutes, took a shower and took panodil. Oh by the way, it's not called panodil here, it's Panadol. Maybe it's just called panodil in sweden?


We did some shopping when we were in Turkey last month. Actually my husband did the shopping and I was mostly trying the clothes that he suggested and that I also agreed on. Some of them we bought, some of them got rejected(by me). It's so nice to put on those specific clothes. Because it reminds me of the time we had in Turkey and the fun we had going shopping.
Awww I miss him so much......

Unwanted guests.... Updated!

I was relaxing on the sofa all by myself, minding my own business and watching tv. I was very pleased for the lack of mosquitos tonight. Suddenly I see something moving near the door of the bookcase. What was that?!?! When I looked again to see if it really was something there or it was just my mind playing me I saw nothing. I continued watching TV. After a few seconds I see, in the corner of my eye, again something moving. OH MY GOD!! What was that? Is there a ghost living in the bookcase coming to haunt me? (ye i know, too many scary movies;)) I keep looking even if I see nothing but the bookcase. But wait a minute......What?! What is that? A black line is moving..What the *** is that?! I see another black line just beside it...WHaaaat!? Those two black lines were like 4 cm each! Creeped out by the fact that this is probably a cockroach I run to the kitchen to get the bug spray. When I come back the bug is nowhere to find. I move the sofa, check underneath it, I look inside the bookcase, no trace of the bug. And Iam too creeped out to actually move the things around which are in the bookcase, to check maybe the bug is hiding behind it. Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeew this was the worse experience so far. Still we have a HUGE cockroach in the home!! Iam scared! It was so big, it could probably eat me if it wanted to. Ye, if I gave it a knife and fork it might be able to eat me all. It was huge, Iam not even exagerating. I tried to take a picture of the two black lines, but the stupid camera didn't work. Two lines-tentacles!

So today I've met HUGE creepy cockroach and it's friends the earwigs(???) that were on the bathroom floor. Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeew I don't like bugs:( Iam sure I am going to have nightmares about bugs...The movies I've been watching doesn't even feel scary to me anymore....

Much bigger than this one and much uglier too!!!!!!!!!!!

*Must remember:

to tell the maid in the morning to go for a bug chase, starting inside the bookcase. Probably with me standing on the sofa*

updated: the chase on the bug continues. We didn't find it today so it probably continued it's visit somewhere else in the home. The maid also informed me that the other night she felt a cockroach on her head LOL. Poor maid. But she said it and was smiling and laughing so I guess she doesn't care.

14th of Ramadan

Oh no I am watching another scary movie about a girl haunting her ex-boyfriend. Eeeeeeeeeeew it's so scary!!! But I can't stop watching......................................................................But I think it's near the end now..
Watch the trailer:D

The name of the movie is "Shutter" it's with Joshua Jackson.

Later today we are leaving hot trendy Beirut for cool relaxed 'mountain-city'.
I'll be back on Sunday inshallah.
Wish you all a very nice weekend!

september 03, 2009

13th of Ramadan *updated*

Iam still waiting for the morning pray. I don't know if I can stay awake much longer. But I fear that if I fall asleep now there's no way I'll be able to wake up before 8. And I should pray the morning pray before 6 oclock, for it to be on time. And for it to be on time is indeed my goal. So I better not go to sleep....


You know what?? I have one mosquito bite on my hand, 2 on my arm and one on my back. At least those are the ones I've discovered so far. I tried to kill that big ugly mosquito several times, but it was a very lucky one. And hungry obviously..Grrrr I hope they wont itch too much or I might lose my mind.. We'll see tomorrow. Usually it takes about a day to feel their real level of itchiness....Akh those mosquitos-can't you just leave me alooooooooooone????!?!??!?!??!


We've broke the fast, prayed and now everyone has left. Gone, puff, Iam all alone. But it's okey, Iam enjoying the TV all by myself. Today we ate the tastiest food ever. Spiced rice, chicken and pinenuts. It should be eaten with yoghurt, but I prefer without. The only thing I missed was almonds sprinkled on top:) Well we can't have everything we want can we?
We got some great news today, HAMDELLA. Just hope there is still time left to make it happen. Kheir inshallah.

Too afraid to go to sleep

I've just watch this movie "Whisper" it was a great movie, but too scary for me who going to sleep alone LOL.

Iam going to read from the Quran now and try to stay awake for another 2h45 mints so I can pray the morning pray before I sleep.
Hope I forget all about the movie till then.

september 02, 2009

I just remembered

Sometimes I realize that just couple of months ago this home was still pretty unfamiliar to me.
Nowadays most things feels so natural for me to do here. Like closing/opening the windows, the ac, be the last one to leave the salon and therefor be the one closing the TV, the lamps etc. Even waking up for suhoor and fixing myself some food feels just like an everyday thing. Yes I do realize that all the things I mentioned are normal and very natural. But Iam me and I know how Iam and Iam just surprised, in a good way, how things feels natural for me now. Hamdella.

Now Iam going to continue watching a movie and later go to bed. If I fall asleep before its time for suhoor, I do hope I wake up for it.

I want to share this with you:D

I found it here, it's completly copy pasted okey!

""funny story about following sunnah.

There was this beautiful woman, who wanted to get married, but she wanted a very pious husband, so she said that she’ll marry the man who recites the whole Quran every single day, fasts for the whole year and stays awake and worships Allah all throughout the night.

She was a very beautiful woman, and a lot of suitors wanted to marry her, but they knew they couldn’t fulfil the conditions she set. Until this one man stepped forward and said he could fulfil them. So the Imam got both of them married.

After the first night of the marriage, the wife sees that the husband doesn’t recite the whole of the Quran, nor does he fast, nor does he stay awake in the worship of Allah, she decided to let it roll on for a few weeks to see if there were any changes, there weren’t, so she filed a complaint and asked for a divorce.

They are both taken in front of the judge, and the judge asked, ‘What were the conditions of the marriage?’ the man replied ‘They were for me to recite the whole Quran daily, keep fast for the whole year and to worship Allah all throughout the night.’

The Judge asked, ‘ did you fulfil them? The man calmly answered, ‘…yes.’

The judge answers, ‘you lie, your wife has said that you don’t, that’s why she’s asking for a divorce’.

But the man insisted that he had fulfilled the conditions, so the judge asked, ‘did you recite the full Quran everyday?’ The man answered yes. The Judge, baffled asked, ‘how? How can you do that?’ The man coolly answered, ‘I recite Surah Ikhlas three times a day and according to Prophet Muhammad (saw), reciting Surah Ikhlas three times is equivalent to reciting the whole Quran.’ The Judge was intrigued, so he asked, ‘how did you fast the whole year?’ The man answered, ‘ I fasted for the whole month of Ramadan, then kept another six fasts in the month of Shawwal, according to Prophet Muhammad (saw), keeping all of the fast of Ramadan then keeping six fasts in the month of Shawwal, is as if you have fasted for the whole year.’

The Judge remained silent, he couldn’t give a reply saying the man was wrong, so finally he asked, ‘ how did you stay awake all night and worship Allah, when your wife saw you sleeping?’ The Judge thought the man wouldn’t be able to answer this one, but the man, cool as a cucumber answered, ‘I prayed Salatul Isha with jamaat, then the next day prayed Salatul Fajr with jamaat, according to Prophet Muhammad (saw), the one who prays Salatul Isha and Salatul Fajr with jamaat, it is as if he had stayed up all night worshipping Allah.’

The Judge sat there looking at the man; the final verdict was about to be released…

He said to the man and his wife, ‘…go, just go, there is nothing wrong with this marriage’… ""


I slept 3 hours yey. In the morning I was woken by some kids waaaay to energized) Afterall it was just 8 oclock in the morning and I had been sleeping for 3 hours.... Well I stayed in bed till 11.30 but didn't get much sleep anyways.

So here Iam, with headache and stomachache. Just great!

12th of Ramadan

Today, or actually yesterday was an unusual day. I woke up at 9 and went back to sleep at 2 in the afternoon, slept for 2 hours then started to get ready for the charity dinner we were going too. The dentist appointment effected me, I got so tired. Well maybe the lack of sleep last night contributed to my sleepiness aswell;)
So we went to the charity event around 6.15. Abour one hour after we arrived, I heard the calling for pray, for the first time, LIVE. With the man calling for pray just in front of me. Subhanallah, it was magical. There were also a group of children performing songs about the prophet (saw) etc. That was just soooo wonderful. If there is anything more beautiful than a child's voice singing, oh please do tell. Mashallah.

I almost didn't eat anything since I was still feeling the painkiller injection. And I was also told to avoid coloured food. So I chosed to eat only white food. Which there were none of;) Well I ate a little bit more than that just because I had to.. And a couple of hours after I arrived home, I made myself some sandwiches and soon Iam going to eat a banana and drink water. And after that it's time for Quran-reading and then pray the morning pray and THEN going to sleep.

It was a pretty enjoyable day. Eventhough I couldn't eat properly, Iam pleased with how the day went and mostly about how my teeth looks LOL. All of you who got white teeths or at least teeths without miscoloured lines on them: be thankful;) Well, we should always be thankful for whatever we have and for what we don't have.

Love to you all! And peace!

september 01, 2009

It's going to be wonderful!!!

Yes it's going to be wonderful to be able to smile without feeling more or less ashamed. Last year I got my front tooth fixed in Sweden. A month afterwards the material they had used to fix the hole, got miscoloured. So ever since then I've been walking around looking as if I had food still on my teeth. Kinda. So today I went to finally get it exchanged to a better material that wont fall off or get miscoloured. And I fixed 2 other small holes.

The dentist were great hamdella. And did a good job. I didn't feel a thing(okey I felt some...) and it looks nice too:) Just hope it lasts, inshallah ya rabb.

I think I now know how it feels after getting botox injections in ur lips;)

11th of Ramadan

Iam sitting here and eating. I already ate one banana, Iam headed for the second one.
My head is aching terribly. But hopefully it will be just fine till tomorrow.
Tomorrow I am going to the dentist at 10 o'clock. Iam not so sure that I'll be able/allowed to fast. I don't think so, but it depends a little bit on what the dentist going to do. But anyway I have the intention to fast tomorrow and we'll see what happens. Wish me luck with my dentist appointment. Iam a little bit nervous, it's my first visit to a male dentist and if that wasn't enough he is also an arab. Iam sorry all you arabs but it's my first time having something "done" to me outside of my country. Iam a bit nervous about that. WHy do we Swedish believe that our medicine in our own country is better than abroad? Or do all people think the same way? Even though I've had my bad experience with Swedish medicine, it just feels much safer there...Well anywhooo it's not like Iam the first person he has ever worked on before:) Going to be weird...It's a he...I prefer females, but no females at this clinic. Or at least no female dentists, only assistents....

To something else, the message of Quran is just amazing subhanallah. I've read it all several times, but each time I discover something new. I guess it's due to where in life we are and in which situations we are handling.